The Fresh Beat Band

I hope you know who this is:) You probably don't.. It's the "Fresh Beat Band" from NickJr. No, I don't watch NickJr. Only at 12:00pm :) This show is really neat, & I keep wanting Clayton to see it but he just can't stay up long enough:(.. && Twist (the one in the yellow is my favorite)_

I really like this show, ask my Mom.. I torture her with it. Hahaha, I know I'm 18 but hey a girl can still dream:) Hahahha.. Just so you know the one in the pink is Kiki, orange=shout, & blue=Marina. I don't know why the girl in the blue has a normal sounding name. But whatever.

I like their song they end every show with! "We had a great day it was a super day!!:)"

It's about four best friends who go to music school together & love to sing & dance. Also it teaches preschoolers (& Jamie:]) how to show emotions and stuff through music and it teaches music appreciation. Just like today was tap dance day & it taught about tapdancing.

Whatever, haha.. I love that show!

Cleaning Houses.

I think I'ma make a flyer & post it around town with my number on it for cleaning houses. I might not get many calls but I may get some. I'm desperate. I need a job & I need money:(

You may be looking for an amazing post of some sort. But this is not the place to come. Because I have nothing to say. I do ask you to continue to pray for me. I still have a decision to make.

So Montreat may be going down hill *que crash & burn........ERKKK BOOM!* It's too expensive:( $9,000 smacks a semester! Oh well, God'll work it out!

Hm, I have some thinking to do.
Seeya!!

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"I Love You my Lord. I'm sorry I haven't spoke to you that much today. Thanks for laying it on my heart & convicting me of it!"

Little Nice Things, Here & There.

You know how people do little nice things that most people look over? Things you do for people you don't even know. Like helping a lady with her groceries, picking something up when someone drops it, or even letting someone borrow your phone when they don't have one.

Have you ever though that those people could be.. angels? (for lack of a better word). Or just wonderful God-fearing Christian people who may need a little encouragement that there are still good people in this world.

I ran across this the other day. I was driving to get my Mom & Clayton some Chinese food & this man in a green van was sitting at Hardee's needing out onto the main street. && if you know anything about Morganton getting out at Hardee's, Checkers, Denny's, etc.. is hard. Well I stopped & let him out, otherwise he could have been there all day long. Okay that was exaggerated but still it's hard to get out at those places! && it was really neat, because I wasn't going to let him out at first because there was a thousand mile line of cars behind me & I was thinking they might get upset. But I love old people:) Nah, I just thought that, that man may be in a hurry or something & the other people could wait. I wasn't in a hurry, Clayton was asleep & Mom was watching her soaps. So I let him out.

&& you know when I let him out & looked at the back of his car there were these Jesus bumper stickers everywhere. Like WWJD?, Jesus Saves, I love Jesus, etc... I really thought it was neat. It actually touched my heart. & I thanked my God for people that you run across that love Him too. I may never see that man again but I wish I could tell him that he touched my heart.

You may not see this as a big thing, but I really thought it was neat to me. It encouraged me that day. One of God's little ways of slipping in that He loves me & He's everywhere:)

Has this ever happened to you? If so, how?

Good Day!

Today has been a good day.
Me & Mom have gotten along all day long:) I'm pretty proud of that fact.

Other than my brother stealing my journal (cause you're cool Chad).
&& Faceplanting my nephew with the door, it's been an amazing day.

Still haven't heard from any jobs yet. I'm about to call. To show that I'm interested!
Welpppp.. if you hear of any, let me know:)

G'night.
I'ma go cruise the web!

Oh & pick up lines from Dennis Carswell:
"If you were a pig baby I'd be atter your bacon"
"If you were a rose garden I'd be your tiller"

Hahahahaha.. I love him:)

My Life.

I think I may have found what to do.
Idk if my friend Ashley will like it haha, but I hope she does.
However!! I would like to attend Montreat College this coming year.
I know, I know... "Jamie, it's a little late to start thinking about that now." But between now & then, I'ma work. I just hope Montreat offers what I want. If not, it's back to ol' piedmont!
Either way, I'm going to college.

Maybe everyone won't be so disappointed in me anymore.

How Great Is Our God?

You know that song, by Chris Tomlin (but the remake by Seventh Day Slumber is more amazing!)..?
Have you ever honestly sat down & thought.. "How Great Is Our God?"
Of course He is wonderful but to sit down and think about it.. You find out how fascinating He truly is. Just a thought that ran across my mind.

So my family is safely home:)
Clayton, Chad, & Nikki! && the extended family that consists of the Carrs.

I'm pretty happy right now.
I'm about to go fill out an online application for Family Dollar in Glen Alpine! I hope to get that job!!! Pray for me that I will find a job that I enjoy even though it's work. I like being optomistic.

How are you today?

Double Rainbows & God's Love.

The coolest thing happened today while were at VBS!
There was this awful storm during class & then when we went outside to line up for commencement. There was a double rainbow!!
&& the end of it was in the pasture beside our church! It was the neatest thing.
The closest I have ever been to a rainbow & it was huge!

God's love is amazing you know?
He proves it to me everyday.

His heart was broken, mine was mended
He became sin, now I am clean.
The cross he carried bore my burden.
The nails that held him set me free.
His life for mine, his life for mine
How could it ever be?
That he would die, God's son would die
To save a retch like me
What love divine, he gave his life for mine.
His scars of suffering brought me healing
He spilled his blood to fill my soul.
His crown of thorns made me royalty
His sorrow gave me joy untold
His life for mine, his life for mine
How could it ever be?
That he would die, God's son would die
To save a wretch like me
What love divine, he gave his life for mine.
He was despised and rejected,
stripped of his garments and oppressed
I am loved and accepted and I wear a robe of righteousness

That song is amazing, & so true.
Man I can't praise Him & thank Him enough!

Nikki, here is your Yak!

Nikki, you are in Wyoming, I hope, when you read this! Look, you are in Wyoming looking at a "Rocky Mountain, Yak":) Told you, you can see a Yak in Wyoming!
Love you!!!

Love don't come easy..

It's just a game of give & take.
Lalalla..
You'll just have to wait...
Hahah..
I don't know that whole song, but I like it.
It's the truth too.

I have a soapbox today:
It seems like this is where I always vent, but I reckon it is.
I don't understand why people can't treat others like they are worth something.
I mean, when they drop their whole life to just come and live with you & you treat them like crap and you can't even talk to them like they are your girlfriend. I don't understand. I'm sorry. Am I just not fake, or not like that? Why does he try to trick everyone into thinking that it's not him? When it is him!!??!! I don't understand people. Does my mind just not work right? I don't get it.

Ohkay, that's my rant for today:)

Tonight in VBS crafts we made bugs:) It was so cute. You take posterboard & cut out a bug shape & decorate it then leave little openings wherever and put transparency through them:) It's so cute!!! We did mostly lighting bugs & turtles. There were a few butterflies. & Tyler made some strange weirdo looking slug thing. I don't know. I should have taken a photo of it to show you guys. I'll do that tomorrow, if I remember.

For now, I'm off to bed. I gotta pray & sleep some things off. A few things actually.
I just don't understand some things.

Ashley! I'm glad you made a new friend at college! I love you!! && I'm glad you are having fun.

I still miss Clayton! & Chad. && Nikki!
Nikki! You'll see a Yak!!
Love you guys!
:)
G'night.

Should Have.

I should have just took the handshake instead of the hug.
I should have endured the splashes & stopped talking.
I should have laughed at his joke, & walked away.
I should have said "yeah, that's cool" & walked out of his room.
I should have said "I have no idea what you are talking about" & stopped trying to understand. Just so I could have a conversation with him.
I should rip that letter out of the back of my journal & burn it.
I should take his pictures down.
I should burn every song I have ever written about him.
That would be burning every song I have ever written. Period.
I shouldn't like blue eyes.
&& I shouldn't love his smile.
I shouldn't have told him that I liked his hair the way it was today. Messy.
I SHOULD NOT feel this way.

Man, I should have done a lot of things differently.

Ohkay, that's my soapbox for today:
So, I officially think that Ernest Hemmingway is an idiot.
Sorry for any fans out there.
He may have been a good author, but he sucked at love.
He was married four times & killed himself in 1961.
You know, that would have never happened if he would have just chased Agnus when she left his house!
His TRUE love!!!!! I don't get it? Why don't people just go for it? If you love them, tell them.
All he wanted was her love & that's what he got, & he let pride and embarassment get in his way. What's wrong with him???

I just got done watching "In Love & War". It was a good movie, till the end.
&& might I say Chris O'Donnell is a beautiful man.
Check out them blue eyes:) Ohkay, goodnight:)

Sun tanned toes, tickling the sand:)

No cold drink was chilling in my right hand.
However, I did get burnt.
My tanline makes me look deformed because my bathing suit strap is in the middle of my bathing suit & not on the sides.
Oh well, my farmer's tan from the other day is officially evened out.

I jumped off the highdive @ Steel Creek today, & I swanny I broke a rib & my shoulder.
My glasses cut my face too. *Yes I wore glasses on the highdive. I can't see without them.
I went down the waterslide too & busted my elbow at the end.
**The same elbow I busted open three years ago.

Oh well, now I'm back home!!!
I had fun though!
It was my favorite people in the whole world.

I don't have much today.
I had one of those tell-it-like-it-is days.
Ever had those?
Jamie didn't want to be nice today if others weren't nice to her.
But thankfully, everyone was nice:)

Keep praying for the decision that I have to make.
I don't want to make the wrong one.
&& I want God to be in it all!

Nikki, I still hope you see a random Yak.
&& I miss you guys tons!
I don't like the feeling that you aren't right there.
Hahaha..
I love you guys! && be safe!!!
<3

I see your face in my mind as I drive away.

"No one thought it'd ever end that way. People like people & sometimes we change our minds. It's killing me to see you go after all this time".

I like that song, by Taylor Swift.
I like everything of hers.
It's called Breathe if you want to check it out.

**Nikki: while I have been driving your car, I have been listening to your Taylor Swift CD:)**

Today was eventful.
I woke up & ate breakfast:)
Then I washed 50 lbs. of beets.
Then Mom & Dad put them on the cooker & I left to help Tonya with VBS stuff.
We are doing crafts & it's harder to get everything together than I thought it was!
I'm excited though:) Because we make these really awesome pillows!
Mine's all tye-dye fleece:)

I wrote a song for God that I want you to check out:)
If you think it's stupid, don't comment it.
It's called:

My Sweet Rose of Sharon
Up on a lonely hill
You took my place
That cross was mine to bare
Yet it was your blood which was spilt

The thorns were mine
That robe was mine
Those nails were mine
& that sword was mine

There was no spot in you
And a thousand in me
Your red blood stained me white
So salvation could be free

Thank you Jesus
You are my dearest friend
Thank you Jesus
For taking my place
With Your mercy & grace
Setting me free
To live for eternity

I wish I could repay you
I'm going to live for you

Give me your heart
Give me your eyes
Give me your taste
Give me your grace
Give me the whole armor of God

Fill me with You

I love you my God
My Sweet Rose of Sharon
I love you my Lord
The fairest one of all

I'll never cease to praise you
For the peace I have found
Thank you God, I love you
Oh, God, I praise You

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for setting me free

Once again, if you think it's lame. Don't comment it.
I wrote it from my heart.

So there is a decision that I have to make.
&& I'm not saying what it is.
Just because it's nobody's business but mine.
However, pray for me that God will show me which way to choose.
I have prayed for his guidance.
He has yet to answer my prayer.
But everything is in His time!

G'night:)

Best Buds:)

This is the best thing in the whole wide world.

Playdoh.

Well, Clayton's not shy around new people:) I reckon that's a good thing! Haha, today was great:) I'm sore from yesterday, but God still blessed me with a beautiful day!!! Now, I'ma go hang out with Christina. We are watching Pocahontas. How cool is that?

Bailing Hay & A Few Other Random Things:)

I'm serious my friend, I don't think I'll ever do it again.
I have done it in the past & actually saw it rewarding & slightly fun.
But 3 hay fields in 1 day!! Killed my life.
I have a blister on the back of each foot & a thump in my head that would make the devil cry.
Ohkay, maybe he wouldn't cry.. but it hurts.

HOWEVER!! I have made this decision! Today is the day which the Lord has made, rejoice & be glad in it & don't complain:)

I can officially never say that Tyler Jaynes hasn't rode in a car with me. Because now he has. Hope I didn't scare him. Hahaha, oh well. He made the decision to sit in the passanger seat.

I had Mom's speghetti for supper .aka. the BEST speghetti in the world! && I couldn't even enjoy it because I was so tired. It was a meal fit for a king! Mom's speghetti & fruit-punch kool-aid. It does NOT get better than that, my friend.

Ashley: since you don't know how to fix comments on your blog. Just wanted to let you know: I know I'm not going to lose you, because I refuse to let that happen!! I love you to peices. Absolutely to death. You are my sister. Honestly. You give me the BEST advice in the most complicated situations. You actually listen & seem like you care. Not many people in my life can I say that about. I love talking to you. I had the most fun at your house just sitting there all day gossiping:) Oh & HAPPY ONE YEAR w/ Wesley!!!!!! You are right. It doesn't seem that long at all!! I swanny you kids just started! I LOVE YOU!

Welp, I'm off to wash the grime off me. I'm not even sure what color my skin is suppose to be. I have an amusing tanline though. A farmer's tan. && my hands are still white because I wore gloves.
I'm cool:)

G'night.

Guy List For God:

Think me weird if you would like, but I believe that when we pray to God, we should be specific.
Even though God knows your heart & what you want. You should still be specific.

At this age in my life when I look for someone to date, I'm looking for someone to marry..
Yes, I know.. that'd scare most guys off. Oh well, don't reckon they are the "one".

I made a "Guy List For God" & I pray over it every night.
Thought I'd share it with you:)

Guy List For God!
-Godly, Godly, Godly!
(-I want him to have what I have. )
(-To be able to build our relationship on what we have, the love in our hearts for God. )
-Is good with kids.
(-I love kids & I want him to feel the same. )
-Hardworker.
(-I can't be with someone who can't take care of me. )
-Provider.
-Comforter.
-Rough hands.
(-I don't handle girly hands on a guy well. )
-Blue eyes.
-Big heart.
-Manly.
(-Only be sensitive to me. I mean, don't be a jerk but.. do you understand what I'm saying? )
(-I just don't want him to be a whimp. )
-My best friend.
(-I just like to hang out sometimes. )
-Not mushy.
(-That drives me bonkers! )
(-I don't like talking about my feelings all the dang time & "how much I love you". Ehh.. )
-Has a job!
-Has a car!
-Goes to church!!
-Someone I can talk to about ANYTHING!!
-Someone I am comfortable around!
-Preferably, I would like for them to be country, or at least have a country side.
-Listens to me & actually cares what I say.
-Genuinally (sp?) cares about me.
-Loves my family!
-My family loves!
-Respects where I stand on things!
-Good looking.
-I know it's wrong because I'm not skinny but___ slightly on the slim side.

I'm sure you are thinking, "dang girl you are picky".
But hey, it's the rest of MY life.
Not yours.
So I think I have a right to be picky.

Later!

Over It.

This may come as a shock to you...

I'm over T.
Really.
Naturally..
I have no feelings for him any longer.
It's like God finally answered my prayer & I don't have to think about him anymore.
I mean I love him. Just not the way I did. Is that weird?
Either way, it's true. Just wow.. When someone says his name now, my heart doesn't jump out of my chest.
It stays there and I'm like "oh yeah, that's Ty". I like it this way. I can now move on with my life.
&& if God sends me someone I can go for it now & not have T in the back of my mind:)

God answers prayers.

I-Pod!!!

So I am a very excited girl right now! Other than spending the evening, the rest of this night, and tomorrow with some of the most amazing friends you could ask for!! I am blogging from my I-Pod Touch! Haha. I've never been able to do that before because I don't have the honor of having Wi-Fi. It's cool though. My 'rents will get with of one day. Just kidding, they are great and I so blessed to have them as my parents.

So I have something to say.....

Oh before I say what is on my mind haha apologizing early for any mistakes.

Okay, now back to what I was going to say.... I think my feelings for T are gone. God has answered my prayer to gave him in my heart as just my friend and my brother. I just realized last night that he wasn't the "one". He is somebody's "one", just not mine. And I believe that someday when God sends me that perfect one, I'm going to look back on these past 5 years or so and be like "I thought that was love?". And that day or whatever is going to be the best day of my life other than when I got saved and until I get married.

Todayhas been a pretty good day.
I went to a funeral where they did all this army stuff and this was cool. Really neat.
Right now I'm at my friend, Ashley Dombrowski's house. I think I have talked to her before.

I haven't read my Bible today and actually feel bad about it.
It's in my bag.

Welp I'ma bid thee farewell.
BYE!!!!!!

I'd Rather Have Jesus

That's a really good song. You should check it out:) It's so true too! I rather have Him than anything in this whole wide world.

So tonight we had a fill-in preacher, Steve Chapman. Dad had some stuff done to his back today in Gastonia so he couldn't preach because he is on 24-hour bed rest. ANYWAYS!! Steve done so good. && it's like everything he preached on, I had read this week somewhere in my Bible! He preached on staying "near the cross". My favorite quote he said was "I love to talk to people about the cross wherever I go, He's not on the cross anymore!" That's so true! He preached out of Galations 6. && he also talked about how in Ephesians 6, every morning you should put on your whole armor of God!!! Awesome sermon!

So tonight the "love of my life" got mad. && I didn't like it. I can't explain the feeling I had when he got upset. But it just completely turned me off. && I was thinking maybe God was answering my prayer that he is just my brother:) && on top of that I think that I learned he isn't the "one".

I do like this other kid. No big deal. He's sortah shallow so I'm not seeing us ever being together. That & his mom. Long story that just isn't the World Wide Web's business! Sorry guys! Well anyways. He's my best friend & he means a lot to me. He's really been there for me!!! It's just nice to think about. Hahaha..

I think that this is all:) I don't have much today! My dad has to preach a funeral tomorrow! My Mom's, Uncle Wayne, died. Dad got to lead him to Jesus a few days ago! So Praise God that, that happened before the cancer took him. It's an answered prayer & really put my Mawmaw at ease.

After the funeral I hope to spend the day with a few of my close friends. Ashley Dombrowski, Taylor, & Janaye! I'm excited!!!!!!!
G'night!

Titus, Philemon, Hebrews, & James...

"First Peter, Second Peter, 3 Johns, Jude, & Revelations"... Ha, I used to sing that song as a child:) In my 5 year old Sunday School class! I know all the way from Matthew to Revelations (since you care so much)!

Today is Monday & like every other Monday I went to Bible Study @ The Jaynes house:) & we read out of Titus. I had never really paid all that much attention to it other than the first chapter talks about how a preacher should conduct himself & stuff. But I read it & it's not just for preacher's. Seriously .. It's for everyone on how to treat everyone. It was really cool. && it opened my eyes up to how I see people. I would love to share with you what I learned!

Titus 1:15 says:
They profess that they know God; but in works they deny Him, being abominable, and disobidient, and unto every good work reprobate.

That verse reminded me of how people are hypocrites in the church. && a lot of times they won't go to church for that reason. Because people claim to know God & then their fruits don't bear it. I pray to God that I am never like that. I have been in the past but I never want to be there again.

Titus 3:5 says:
Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, by the washing of regeneration, & renewing of the Holy Ghost.

That verse just got me because it's awesome.
I mean seriously He died for me.
I don't think I would ever die for someone who was so rude & angry towards me.

Me & Mom got in a fight today & Titus sortah showed me how I should treat people & things. It was awesome.
Mom's prayer was answered, she prayed Bible study would speak to me. It did.

I've never had a desire to be in God's word & now I do. It's crazy. I've been close to God but never this close. I desire to stay like this & scootch up even closer to my God.

I have plans this Thursday to hang out with my friend Ashley D. I haven't seen her in forever. & Janaye too! Taylor is suppose to be there too. I don't think she has to work. I don't remember what she said. But it's much needed girl time:)

I got hurt @ camp this week. My heart was hurt. Not because God broke, but because of a "guy" thing. I try to ignore that when I'm at camp but it never faileth that it happens. So it did. I have came to a conclusion about it all though___I am a forgiving person. && it seems like God has given me a glimpse of His eyes & His heart. && The Bible says that if you ought against your brother ... you know that's bad. That's sortah a sin. In a way. You can't have hatefulness in your heart towards someone & then expect God to bless you. I am to be like Christ & I'ma strive for that everyday.

If Taylor reads this, I just want her to know I'm sorry for being hurt & upset. I love you, I really do. God has a bigger plan for me. This plan was just yours, not mine. God put this in my life for a reason. Maybe to get closer to Ty. Which happened. Either way.. it's okay. God has put in my heart that it's fine.

Camp makes me feel like I have grown up so much, & I truly believe that I have.

P.S. Chad you would be so proud of me!!! I went inside the horse pasture WITH the horse. I TOUCHED the horse WITHOUT a gate between us!! :) oh yeahh!

I know, I know...

I said I would be back Saturday & I failed"/
I just have nothing to write about.

God gave me a peace with Johanna I have been searching for for a long time.
&& He gave me a peace in my salvation & His existance.
Because my anger to Him was making me doubt it all.

I love him so much.
He saved around 3 of my bestfriends this week.
He's just amazing:)