Monday, December 29, 2008

I Wish My Brother's Were My Best Friends;

I have not slowed down all day, oh I'm tireddddd; Clayton had me on my toes since early ahahaha.. He ate so much at lunch he made me full watching him. I don't know where he put it all he got that one from his dad; FOR SURE! He didn't come to my house because my mom has the crud.. puking and all that comes with it! I'm glad I don't have it anymore and I PRAY that I DON'T get it again!

Well I left Claybob's at about 4, I guess. I went to Bible Study early because we had our "Christmas Party" tonight. It was suppose to be last week but I had that "crud" that my mom has. So we changed it so I could be there.. (That's what Momma Jaynes is for).

I had fun either way, because well that's what happens when you go to the Jaynes house. You have fun.

I came to a conclusion that scares me. (Thanks Feelings); being a teenager is the lamest thing anyone ever invented.

Hm, my brother is gone for a week; "/ sortah depressing. No matter how much we fight, I still love him and I like it when he's home. My dad wants me to clean his room, I have no idea why I was elected to do this, but whatever. Dad said he would pay me though, that he would make him. Andrew is tight, I would like to see him try to make him. I bet Nikki misses Chad. I always miss Chad because I don't see him alot. That side of the Carswell family has the busiest life I have ever seen. I don't know how they do it. God, has blessed them though, so tremendously!! With Chad's sugar, and Clayton :D We all waited and prayed a long time for that little guy!

I wish my brother's were my best friend's like on that movie raise your voice. Chad's closer than Andrew will ever be. Because, I don't know why.. Me and Chad can talk about ANYTHING (which I love) and Andrew.....hunting, hunting, hunting, animals, hunting. Blllaaaa! Fact: Did you know I took hunter's safety so I could get my license and be closer to my brother? pahaha, lame right?!?

Well I'm on an I-Tunes expedition and I'm having fun.. I have $53 dollars to spend!

Be safe Chad & Andrew.. and whoever else you are with.
Love You Guys!

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Stacking Your Stones;

Today has been a most wonderful day I must honestly say. God has been so gracious to me today. This morning I really got my eyes opened up, for real. First in Sunday school and how we are examples to others... and how is what you have done in the past year glorified God and what has pulled you away or made you closer? Well it made me look at my life, and I'm going to let you know about it; I'm sure you care.. well if you are reading this I guess you do.

My year began with praying, honestly that's what our church does every year. I'm excited about this year though because Alan Carr is preaching (that's my sister-in-laws dad) if you don't know him, you should because he is an amazing preacher! Well anyways, ahahaha;
Well that was all good and well at the beginning of the year. Honestly, I wasn't where I should have been with the Lord ESPECIALLY in my prayer life.
Then, the most percious thing happend.. on February 15, 2008 Clayton Avery Carswell was introduced into my life. He was beautiful (and still is to this day).. :D All during Nikki's pregnancy my mom would tell me how when he got here that I needed to be a Godly example for him, and me being the teenager with the attitude that I am knew good and well that this was what was expected, so I just rolled my eyes and said "Mom, I know" and went on with life. However, at his dedication service I thought about how I don't need to be and example to just him, ya know? That would sortah be like "straddling the fence" God calls in luke warm, and He says if you are luke warm that he will spew you out of his mouth. Well I didn't want to be fake and whatnot. So I thought to myself "I shouldn't just be an example to Clayton, I need to be an example to everyone"..
So I rededicated my life there at Clayton's dedication service and I was going strong and whatnot.. Then just as ALWAYS I slipped back into my old habits. Sortah, playing church I suppose (which makes you feel like JUNK!!)

Let me fastforward to this mornings service, my dad was talking about stacking your stones (he preached out of Joshua 1, for those who might like to read). He was talking about being a good example to others, and how are you stacking your stones? I noticed that for half of a year I have sortah been a fake. Yes, don't get me wrong, I love God with all I have.. and I would more than likely be a marter for him... but still; I noticed what I had done. I have been stacking stones wonderful to people but to myself, my stones were falling everytime I tried to stack them up. So I fixed it.
When dad gave the altar call he said, "today would be a great day to just start over, get a clean slate" and whatnot... so I did, my slate is clean && I'm going to try to live up to what God would have me live for. Because, he died for me, shed his blood on Calvary and all he asks of us is to live for him. That's the least I could do. However, I don't want to do my least, I want to do the VERY BEST I can for him!!!!! && I declare that's exactly what I'm going to do!

Well now that I have a new outlook on life, I'm going to get a new outlook on the back of my eyelids.
Clayton Avery is coming tomorrow.. bright and early && I got to be ready! I LOVE BABYSITTING HIM!
and playing with him and doing all the cool stuff aunts do. He only has two aunts so me and Amy HAVE to spoil him!!!! Well I am anyways, I don't have to live with him, ahahaha. :D Sorry Chad & Nikki!!


Friday, December 26, 2008

Busy Day With The Jaynessss!

So, if you know me.. you know that I love, love, love to spend time with the Jaynes family. If you don't know them, they are my adopted extended family my second mom and dad, home away from home, an adopted sister and two brothers, well... you're just missing out if you don't know them. You get my point by now:

I got out of bed, ashamed.... at eleven! Yeah I stayed up late on the computer as I normally do when I have no school the next day. But, hey.. what's a seventeen year old to do with no car (cause she's cool and wrecked it)?
So Trisha calls and asks what I'm doing when she gets off work, and of course my answer was absolutely NOTHING! As alwaysssssss!!!

Anyways, the parents gave the okay (of course that's what they say when Trish and Tonya are involved), but it don't bother me none.. I live for weekends like today! So we drove to the lake.....60 on EVERY road there. Yeah, I'm sure you don't think 60 is too bad.. but I swannnyy these are the curviest roads in burke county! Anyways, after God allowed us to safetly arrive to the Jaynes' place. We hung out for a while. Tyler showed off his new guitar and Austin showed us how awesome his new XBox 360 was. Then we compared I-Pods and he declared mine better. Then Callie show off her new puppy "Snuggles", it's the cutest thing, by far, that I have ever seen in my life!

After that, we left.

To Hickory, with now a safer driver, Tonya. We get to Hickory and go into Old Navy and they have absolutely NOTHING! I have never went in that store and not come out with at least something...It's my favorite place, but after tonight, IDK. Then we went to Rack Room Shoes to buy some shoes for my Best Friend, Gillian. Then we went to El Paso, I'm not a big fan of El Paso (in Morganton anyways), but it was pretty good in Hickory. Of course, our last stop was Super Wal-Mart.

I love Tonya to death!!! But, she won't let you pay for ANYTHING!

Strange: Tonya Jaynes actually left Hickory without stopping at Krispy Kreme..

Well, that might be because we were late as heck getting back to the movies in Morganton to see "Bed Time Stories" it was such a cute movie!

Afterwards (it's now 12 something) we go back to The Jaynes place and reside for a few minutes. Then home again home again...

Now I'm here talking to my best cousin Kory, and my friend Ronnie, who I haven't talked to in a while because he now resides in Lenoir instead of Morganton. I'm going to go catch up on old times and whatnot.


Thursday, December 25, 2008


It is here!!! Well sortah, it's Christmas day but the whole shabang of getting excited and whatnot is over. Well I'm still excited because I got a new I-Pod Touch!! Whooo!! My parents honestly had me thinking that I was getting absolutely nothing! My mom went to the depth of writing me a letter saying how she was disappointed and times were rough and she was sorry she couldn't get me anything for Christmas! ahahahaha.. she made me cry in front of everyone. Oh && Trish (my brother's girlfriend, and one of my very best friend's) takes pictures. Ahahaha, and if I'm not mistaken my sister-in-law, Nikki, videotaped it or something. Thanks guys!! I was only crying though because the letter was heartfelt and she wrote about more than her disappointment on our hard times. Then she pulled out a box I thought was from my dad to her, the camcorder she wanted so bad. However, it was my I-Pod Touch! Whoooo!!!

I must give my thanks to my sister-in-law! Thank you Nikki, ahaha without you I would have never figured I-Tunes out and wouldn't be enjoying my music by my side as I write my blog. Oh, and thank you for introducing me to this blog!! ahaha-

I had a wonderful Christmas, I really did. God has blessed me so much in my life and I know that I don't show my appreciation as I should. However, no matter how undeserving I have ever been he has still seen fit to bless me. God's grace is sufficient!!

For Christmas I received:
-I-Pod Touch (thanks mom and dad!)
-Some freaking awesome socks!! (thanks chad and nikki!)
-A princess ring (thanks dad!)
-Stud earrings (thanks Andrew!)
-A purity ring (thanks trisha!)
-Four NEW journals (to start my "saga" thanks chad and nikki!!)
-I-Tunes gift card (thanks Andrew!)
-Digital Photo Keychain (I didn't take it offensively!! thanks chad and nikki)

I think that's all: If I forgot anything, sorry and I love and thank whoever got it for me.

As much as I love all my gifts the absolute highlight of my Christmas was seeing my beautiful nephew, Clayton! That boy.. ahahaha I love him! It's been about a week or so since I seen him: with him being sick, then us being sick, and whatnot. But, it was fantastic and he put a smile on my face as he always does!!