Titus, Philemon, Hebrews, & James...

"First Peter, Second Peter, 3 Johns, Jude, & Revelations"... Ha, I used to sing that song as a child:) In my 5 year old Sunday School class! I know all the way from Matthew to Revelations (since you care so much)!

Today is Monday & like every other Monday I went to Bible Study @ The Jaynes house:) & we read out of Titus. I had never really paid all that much attention to it other than the first chapter talks about how a preacher should conduct himself & stuff. But I read it & it's not just for preacher's. Seriously .. It's for everyone on how to treat everyone. It was really cool. && it opened my eyes up to how I see people. I would love to share with you what I learned!

Titus 1:15 says:
They profess that they know God; but in works they deny Him, being abominable, and disobidient, and unto every good work reprobate.

That verse reminded me of how people are hypocrites in the church. && a lot of times they won't go to church for that reason. Because people claim to know God & then their fruits don't bear it. I pray to God that I am never like that. I have been in the past but I never want to be there again.

Titus 3:5 says:
Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, by the washing of regeneration, & renewing of the Holy Ghost.

That verse just got me because it's awesome.
I mean seriously He died for me.
I don't think I would ever die for someone who was so rude & angry towards me.

Me & Mom got in a fight today & Titus sortah showed me how I should treat people & things. It was awesome.
Mom's prayer was answered, she prayed Bible study would speak to me. It did.

I've never had a desire to be in God's word & now I do. It's crazy. I've been close to God but never this close. I desire to stay like this & scootch up even closer to my God.

I have plans this Thursday to hang out with my friend Ashley D. I haven't seen her in forever. & Janaye too! Taylor is suppose to be there too. I don't think she has to work. I don't remember what she said. But it's much needed girl time:)

I got hurt @ camp this week. My heart was hurt. Not because God broke, but because of a "guy" thing. I try to ignore that when I'm at camp but it never faileth that it happens. So it did. I have came to a conclusion about it all though___I am a forgiving person. && it seems like God has given me a glimpse of His eyes & His heart. && The Bible says that if you ought against your brother ... you know that's bad. That's sortah a sin. In a way. You can't have hatefulness in your heart towards someone & then expect God to bless you. I am to be like Christ & I'ma strive for that everyday.

If Taylor reads this, I just want her to know I'm sorry for being hurt & upset. I love you, I really do. God has a bigger plan for me. This plan was just yours, not mine. God put this in my life for a reason. Maybe to get closer to Ty. Which happened. Either way.. it's okay. God has put in my heart that it's fine.

Camp makes me feel like I have grown up so much, & I truly believe that I have.

P.S. Chad you would be so proud of me!!! I went inside the horse pasture WITH the horse. I TOUCHED the horse WITHOUT a gate between us!! :) oh yeahh!