This is God...

I wish I could be in a service like this every Sunday & Wednesday.. Everytime I walked through the doors. I watched this video and felt the spirit. It made me yearn for it.. I'm pshyced!

Check it out. It's an old hymn called "Precious Jesus"..

Weekend..

I'm pretty excited about the weekend thus far. Today we are having the Wedding Rehearsal for Trish & Andrew @ 5 then afterwards we are going out to eat @ Prime Sirloin Steakhouse (aka AJ's Steakhouse because that's what it was first).. After all this I'm going back to Tonya's (T's mom) house to stay the night because all the guys are taking Andrew fishing (&& keeping him up all night *this is where my evil laugh comes in :)*) So I'm staying there because this will probably get to be the last time I am with Trish for the night that I'm going to have in a long time :(

You don't understand haha, I'm excited about the wedding and them being married don't get me wrong, but I spend literally every weekend with her && now I don't.. haha it's messed up! Okay that sounded like I'm mad but I'm not.

Tomorrow is the big day. We have to be @ the church @ 9:00 am (no sleeping in this weekend) then the wedding is @ one o'clock, after this clean up :/ lame..

Sunday it's the norm just minus Trish & Andrew because they are on the honeymoon.

I have a serious burden on my heart so please keep me in your prayers. It's getting to the point that it's slightly making me mad. & to be mad about that hurts me..

Welp, I'm off:) Have a WONDERFUL day!!

Looking back ...

"through the years, the heartaches & tears, the Lord has never once let me down. Though I don't understand still I'll trust in His plan...."

Okay that's not what this entry is about but that song popped in my head when I wrote the title. This entry is about a post I made back in January with a whole wish list of things that I wanted or prayed for God to do in my life. It's not yet 2010 but I was going through old blogs since I have nothing else to do right now and I came across it..

This is what has been answered so far:
_I could be as close to God as possible.
_I could take up piano again (even though it's slow right now I am teaching myself to play "Sweet By and By" :) that may or may not be someone special's favorite song)
_I stopped caring what others thought.
_I am more out going and confident in myself (on most days).
_I have spent as much time with my nephew as possible even though I'm busy all the time.
_I have stopped fighting with my mom so much :)
_I have become closer with my brothers. Mainly Andrew which is the main one I was shooting for because me and Chad are pretty close as it is.
_I'm not as shy anymore (still shy just not as much).
_I have made someone laugh everyday.
_Chad & Nikki are having another baby.
_My parents not longer treat me as a child.
_Trish & Andrew are getting married.
_I don't have the feeling to try as hard as I once did.
_My prayer life is better.
_I haven't gotten anymore tickets to cost my parents money:)
_I don't complain as much.
_I have made good grades.
_I have learned something new (almost) everyday.
_I have learned more.
_I no longer take life for granted or the things in it.
_I give big hugs everyday..

Not everything on my list has come true but I personally think it has come a long way.

This week until now..

I like making lists on here so here it goes...
My list is my likes & dislikes of This week until now:

LIKES:
-Clayton dancing (I wish y'all could see this, it's the cutest/funniest thing I have ever seen in my life)
-Getting closer to an old friend.
-Being out of school Monday.
-Trish's bachelorette party.
-Showing everyone my speech impediment when I say Marlboro & wheelbarrel, ahahaha
-Church
-Getting to level 20 on Snow Drift (www.shockwave.com type in Snow Drift in the search bar..it's like Mario with a mini abonimal snowman, so FUN!)
-Trish & Andrew's wedding got even closer.
-Seeing Johanna's ultra sounds.
-Knowing Jo-Raye's still alright.
-Being able to get up.
-Smiling.
-Finally figuring out what I think I'm going to do with my life!:)

DISLIKES:
-Getting sore throat two days shy of my final chorus concert.
-Popping my nail off on Trish's door handle (of all the things I done this week a door handle got me, lameo)
-My straightner doesn't get as hot anymore resulting in my hair isn't as straight.
-Getting butterflies when my exboyfriend walked by and waved (should not happen!)
-Being mad at T, because he didn't know that he done anything wrong. In fact he didn't do anything wrong.
-Having the feeling of hate, that's the worst feeling in the world towards someone I have ever experienced in my life.
-Having to dress up and do the Hula at the bacheloretter party (lame)
-Making a 65 on my practice speech because it was under time.
-Having to redo it today.

Okay.. I can't think of anything else. All in all this week has been good so far. I'm sure it can only get better.

Today:

LIKES:
-Working with dad again.
-Planting okra and beans with that cute little planter thing.
-Building a fire.
-Wearing Carhartts.
-Knowing Jo-Raye's still alright.
-The message Ashley Dombrowski wrote in my yearbook.
-Being able to wake up.
-Wasn't scared of the mules.
-Not getting a farmers tan (again).
-Driving posts in the ground (that is fun).
-Watching "Legends of the Falls" (Aidan Quinn is beautiful :)

DISLIKES:
-Not getting to wear boots. (Dad threatened me if I wore the blister boots again)..
-Being sore (no biggie).
-Finding out how T feels.
-Crying.
-Letting the dog out.
-Bout got hit with tin.
-Not seeing Clayton.
-Waiting one more day.

I guess the goods out weigh the bads. But the dislikes hurt worse than the goods made me happy (well some of them). Still yet God has blessed me today. && I have no right to complain. He has answered my prayers. && He will continue to do so. It's in "His time" anyways, right?

What I like about today__

As tired as I may or may not be.. here is a list of things that I loved about today.

-I got to spend time with my two older brothers.
-I got to drive Andrew's big red Dodge (note that this is a stickshift. Okay, okay I'll admit it was in low 4-wheel drive and I didn't go passed 1st gear. Not the point, I drove it without it dying is the point)
-Spending time with my dad.
-Throwing hay bails onto a real long trailer while it was moving.
-Jumping on the pile of hay bails on the trailer while it was moving (that was fun).
-Riding real high on the top of the hay bails on the trailer.
-Throwing a football around with my brothers.
-Laying in the grass looking at the sky.. I never noticed how beautiful the sky really was. I just never look up. I think I'ma start doing that.
-Gathering hay in the dark.
-Spinning a wheel in my dad's yellow Ford because I took off on a hill.
-Spending time with my Uncle Rick.
-Eating sunflower seeds with Andrew & Dad while we was waiting on Chad to finish bailing so we could pick up.
-Learning something new from my dad.
-Finally really appreciating my dad for what he is, has accomplished, I just love him.
-Not being mad at God anymore.
-Watching Chad sing to the top of his lungs on the tractor because nobody could hear him.
-The loft in Uncle Rick's barn and the motor hay bail thing that gets the bails to the loft without us carring them.
-Having the ability to work.
-The fact that I didn't get a farmer's tan since Andrew & Trish's wedding is a whole of 9 days away.
-Spending all day long outside.

Yeah today was pretty good. I loved it all. I love my life.
I hope y'all had a good day too! :)

You Belong With Me...

T don't have a girlfriend... But I'm sure you can get why I would "sing" this song to him. Hahaha... Watch till the end.. it's the sweetest thing!

Randommmm ba bandom..

So, I'm homeschooling whatever children I may or may not have. Because Senior Project is expensive, annoying, and the biggest hassle I have yet to deal with in my life. I will not make my children suffer this way..

I'm finally finished with that dang portfolio. It's missing the interview and the title page. Because I don't know what the title page looks like and the interview is at school. Yeah.. I thank God for the teacher I have!!

Hm, I have nothing to talk about.

OH! I lied.. My dear friend Wesley Dearman (get it? haha) seems to think T likes me. Just from his observations of us haha.. Wes is actually really good at reading people. It's sortah spooky because it's like he can tell you what your feeling or something.. Creepayy! ha, just kidding I personally think it's awesome. Anyways, it's too long to type on here. But the gist of what Wes said is.. it seems to him that we like each other but we are waiting for the other to say something. So someone needs to make a move... We are both scared of rejection. Because he said that I sortah push away from T to make it seem like I don't like him and we are just friends (so true)--- it's crazy and Wes explains it better.

Pray for David Vandyke and family (my cousins).. His son Matthew and his girlfriend, Brittnay, were walking to the rodeo last night and they got hit by a car & it killed Brittnay. She was 17 years old and her and Matthew have a baby. So keep them in your prayers. I don't think she was saved but I am nobody to judge. Pray God get the glory out of it. I know it may seem hard for their family to do that right now.. Pray lives are touched and God is used in this situation.

Speaking of the Rodeo.. I defiantely went there Saturday. You will never meet someone that is so scared of cows and horses/mules (whatever the beastlike four legged creature is) than I am. But, I LOVE rodeos.. Weird, huh? Growing up my brother's had a friend named Jeremey Reed (beautiful__haha) and his dad always ran a rodeo and Chad & Andrew used to participate in it. Well his father died a few years ago and Jeremy keeps the rodeo going. It's called Hillside Farms. It's neat to watch the bull riding and stuff. I actually have a friend that barrell races and a few friends that ride bulls. It's neato!!

T graduates Saturday btw.. and he presents his big SP speech Tuesday so please keep him in your prayers :)

Okay.. I have nothing more to say..
Good day.. I SAID GOOD DAY!

I'm Angry..

I'm just angry.

Welp, I'm going on a field trip to the BCPL && then to the lake :) fun!

I'm really going to do it this time!!

I have said for years on years.. at least once a week that I am going to start losing weight and eat right. I have done the whole "don't eat two meals only one at night" gig but.. it's like my body got immune to it so the weight stopped coming off.. hahaha! So I'ma do it the right way this time.

I haven't been able to go walking or anything much but I have been doing push-ups (the sissy kind against the wall because I can only do like two of the normal kind). I've been doing 31 a night (because I hate even numbers blame the OCD or whatever it is I have hahaha).. And I do this muscle burn thing where I hold my leg up with the muscle's tightened.. something I read in a magazine... not fun but makes me feel better that I have been doing it. && I did 120 sit-ups last night. Let me tell ya, I felt the burn.

I also am going to eat right. I ate breakfast this morning :) A cup of Corn Flakes with milk & no sugar (I like them better that way).. I was going to bring Cherrios in a bag to school to eat for lunch but I had no bags so I'm lunchless. But it's okay!! I'll grab some when I get home..

This is all I have for today. Continue to pray for my brother Chad, SIL Nikki, nephew Clayton, & neice Johanna (Jo-Raye)!

Lata Gata!!!

Cards..

I like cards. You know, the cheesy Hallmark's or even the ones you see in the Medicine Shoppe for a couple bucks while you are picking up your medicine and it reminds you of someone so you purchase it... (or is that just me that does that?) None the less I like them. It reminds me that people have me in their thoughts. && Sometimes it just seems like they come at the right time in your life.

Fellow bloggers, I'm having a difficult time. No, no, no.. please don't jump to conclusion. I'm fine. It's just I have no idea what God wants me to do with my life. I have thought and thought and what I really want to do is something that goes unnoticed and is underappreciated most of the time.. && that's to be a wife and a mother. How lame is that? I can't make a living doing that. I just wish God would show me sooner it's getting to the deadline here.

Speaking of deadlines....my Senior Project is about to drive me CRAZY!! So much paperwork and yada, yada, yada..

Keep my brother Chad and my SIL Nikki and baby Johanna Jo-Raye :) in your prayers!! They gotta go to Charolette again. Don't forget my nephew Clayton. He needs prayers too!!

I'm off to go to bed and sleep soak myself into Breaking Dawn until I drop the book and go into a coma :) Great stuff.. Lator Gator.

Happy Mother's Day

My mom never gets on blogs or the computer for that matter she's not very technologically inclined. but that's ok... I still love her very much. However, this survey can give you some insight on her :)

1. What is something mom always says to you?
"You have no sense" Haha.

2. What makes mom happy?
Clayton her "Sugarboog"

3. What makes mom sad?
I think when she feels left out in my life or even of her children really.

4. How does your mom make you laugh?
When she doesn't understand teenage slang. It's the funniest thing. Like what she though "bling" meant..hahaha. Makes my life.

5. What was your mom like as a child?
Nothing like me is what she says. She was a tomboy.

6. How old is your mom?
She says she don't care. God gave her another day so she will admit that she is 48.

7. How tall is your mom?
Shorter than me 5'5" / 6" That's all I know.

8. What is her favorite thing to watch on TV?
Her soaps. Hahaha.

9. What does your mom do when you're not around?
I don't know, haha, I'm not around.

10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
Probably something with the Bible or something.

11. What is your mom really good at?
Cooking and being a mom and grandma not mention she's crafty, is good with gardens.. there isn't anything she can't do.

What is your mom not very good at?
There is no such thing... well except spelling but that's why I was born.

13. What does your mom do for her job?
She's a stay at home mom. Well Grandma now because we are all grown up and she's a preacher's wife. If that's labeled as a job.

14. What is your mom's favorite food?
I don't think she has one.

15. What makes you proud of your mom?
Everything she is and has done.

16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
I have no idea hahaha.. Phenias & Ferb's Mom haha. Idk why, that's just the only cartoon I watch.

17. What do you and your mom do together?
Talk, laugh, sing.. yada yada yada.

18. How are you and your mom the same?
We really aren't alike all that much.

19. How are you and your mom different?
We are different in all aspects.

20. How do you know your mom loves you?
By everything that she does.

21. What does your mom like most about your dad?
The man God has made him... && everything else... I mean come on she's been with the man since she was 15 years old.

22. Where is your mom's favorite place to go?
I really don't know. She's never got to travel that much...well sight seeing wise. Who knows.

Happy Mother's Day mom && to all of those out there that are mom's:)

Blushed..

Is blushed a word?? Haha.. Anyways;

I hate how I blush for no apparent reason. Just because I'm talking to someone, I blush. When I think about different things, I blush. When I get embarrassed, I blush. When I'm upset, I blush. When I'm mad, I blush. The list goes on and on.

I don't know why I do this or why I'm telling the blogosphere that I do this, but I do.
&& it's annoying.

Rant over.

Today is the National Day of Prayer!! Don't forget. (Well you shouldn't forget everyday but still).

Bye:)

June 26th

Shhh.. It's a secret.

T's mom invited me to go to Johnson Tennessee with them to see a Casting Crowns concert for T's 18th birthday:) I'm super excited because:

1. Casting Crowns is my FAVORITE band.
2. It's the Jaynes family.
3. I love to go places.
4. It made me feel good that she would invite me.
5. I have never been to Johnson. Heck, I've never even been to Gatlinburg just Bristol for missionary work.

I'm way excited. Thought I would share that with my blogosphere!

-Off Day.

I'm so off today. It's crazy. It's like I got off schedule and I can't get back on. I hate that. But I'm opptomistic so I'ma make the very best of it!! :)

I believe I feel this way because I didn't do my routine shower, medicine, teeth, read, bed. I layed down on the bed, read, and konked out.. I felt like I got more sleep and all since I fell asleep earlier but still yet, my routine has been ruined. I'm not a stickler for routines normally but I have to have a bit of one.

I think I'm going to take up scrapbooking. Well I have all the stuff and I used to be big on making other people scrapbooks but I have never made one for myself. I think it's because I like having all my pictures displayed in my room. But someday when I get older and live in a house with friends or even my husband (someday, I hope) I can't display ALL those pictures in my home. I'm sure I could but still I don't think the hubby or the friends, I may or may not live with, will like it.

Plus I have my wedding and my children's baby rooms and all this stuff in my head I think I should get out. Because I don't want to forget and leave out when those special days arrive in my life. So, what do you think about my idea?

That's all for now, I'm off to class in a few...

15 Things I love..

I got this from Amy & Nikki. You know as I was writing the title I was thinking how easy it is to come up with 15 things that you aren't fond of. So this could be difficult... Here goes;

1. My prom night, I replay it over and over in my head everyday (I'm a lameo, I know but I choose to hold on to the little things).

2. The ability to read. I love to read and it takes me away from here when I don't want to be here. My favorite book is "Where the Heart is" by Billie Letts. I love how she words things.

3. My green eyed, redheaded nephew. All the afore mentioned things I listed about him are the qualities I love about him that are on the outside (including his adorable ears). I also love how I can look at him and smile because he does the cutest things at the perfect moments.

4. My ability to make others laugh. I don't care if I laugh for the rest of my life, as long as someone else is happy (however, I do love to laugh but I laugh at myself so it's all good). Laughter is the best medicine no matter what is wrong. It's proven. I promise anything could be wrong and if you laugh you feel better. No laughing doesn't solve the problems you are faced with but it helps.

5. Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, & Breaking Dawn some of the best books EVER written.

6. My Jesus, My Savior. There is nothing in this world like Him. Oh, how He works miracles in our lives daily. Some noticed, some never seen. I love that He has given me the ability to thank Him even when I don't like it.

7. The Jaynes family. Tonya, David, Tyler (<3), Austin, & Callie. They are my other family and I love them so much.

8. My family. I love everything about it.

9. 40 - 50's How amazing those times were. I think I was born around 50 years too late. If they had internet access back then, then it would be awesome. I love the music, movies, fashion. It's all awesome.

10. Butterflies in my stomach. Awkward, I know.

11. Photographs. They capture everything and make it impossible to forget.

12. Clayton's jealousy when I hold another kid.. Haha it was so cute today when I had Callie. It makes me feel good. Like he wants me ya know?

13. Having the ability to write songs so that the person I didn't say those words to can hear them.

14. Dresses. I don't have many. But I love me some sun dresses..

15. Singing, even though I'm not good at it. I love it and I love to do it, listen to it, yada yada yada.

I know it makes 16 but I love my memories. My childhood ones especially.

Eh, I don't reckon that was too hard. Well I'm going to go get a moonpie and some kool-aid.

Psalms

I love Psalms. If I was a talented person with musical abilities I would put together a Christian band and name it Psalms. Seriously. There isn't one yet is there? I would turn the Psalms into songs haha.. && if I lived in the Bible times I would have a tshirt that read "Psalms"..seriously I love this book in the Bible, it's my favorite. I would be the Psalms groupie of the Bible days. Okay you get it, I like it haha.

Anyways...On Sunday's as my dad preaches I study more into what he is preaching. But this morning for some reason I completely veered (sp?) away and I don't know why but I started reading Psalms. && I made it to Psalms 18 and it says:

1: "I will lvoe thee, O Lord, my strenth." 2: The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower." 3: "I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies." ........... 6: "In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my GOd: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears."

I love those verses. Don't you?

Have fun reading this :) a little insight on me!

Is there always going to be that one person who will always have your heart?
-Only divine intervention could change that but I don't want that to happen.

Do you admit when you're wrong?
-I have no problem with that.

What are you listening to right now?
-You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift.

Is it easy for you to lie?
-I'm so bad at it.

Whats your favorite movie?
-Fried Green Tomatoes.

Whats the worst thing about girls?
-I have my own soap box for them and their immaturity :)

What is your current mood?
-Happy.

Whats to the left of you?
-Fan, dresser, radio, yada yada yada.

Who's your favorite singer?
-Taylor Swift.

Are you trying to quit a bad habit?
-No.

Whats the worst feeling in the world?
-Rejection or the fact that I can't make someone smile.

You have a chance to tell the person you love the most something, what?
-Hahahahahaha... You don't even know.

Whats your middle name?
-Lynn:)

Are you scared to fall in love?
-I do believe it's too late.

Do you wish you could take things back?
-Sometimes.

Whats the reason for the last time you cried?
-I couldn't do anything about it.

Who's your best friend?
-Tyler Jaynes.

Can you tell when someone is fake?
-Obviously, they act that way.

How many kids do you want?
-3-5.

Honestly, what is the color shirt you're wearing right now?
-I'm not wearing a shirt I have a black dress on.

Honestly, what's on your mind?
-Eh, nothing much.

Honestly, what do you want right now?
-Sleep.

Have you ever made someone cry?
-You tell me.

If you could go back 3 months and change something would you?
-Never.

Do you know what you want in life?
-I have an outline and a conclusion.. no beginning.

Do you think anyone is thinking of you?
-Doubtful.

Do you believe that every thing happens for a reason?
-Oh yes.

Is there someone you really like to just hang out with and talk about stuff?
-My favorite thing to do :) Yes, I do.

Have you ever met someone who is incredible?
-When I was nine years old :)

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
-Tyler Jaynes :)

Who was the last person you gave up on?
-God showed me not to give up quiet yet.

Would you rather have gorgeous eyes or smile?
-Smile, because if I'm truly happy the smile will go to my eyes therefore my eyes would be pretty too :) Don't ya think??

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
-I don't see it as a waste at all :)

Have you ever felt like nothing would ever get better?
-I have been there, yes.

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
-Impossible.

Last person you talked to?
-Mom.

Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?
-It's hard.

Whats better; To love or to be loved?
-Both feel pretty good.

Do you want to see someone this very minute?
-It wouldn't bother me :)

Do you like texting, emailing, talking on the phone, or face to face?
-All the above, except talking on the phone.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
-Wow, too many.

Where will you be in an hour?
-Bed time :) or reading.

Do you have a facebook?
-So confusing, but yes.

Have you ever slapped someone across their face?
-That's mean.

Whats the closest thing to you that is blue?
-Random.. a picture frame.

Have you kissed or hugged someone today?
Mhmm.

Do you love anyone?
-I love plenty of people.

Whats the worst abuse you have done to your phone?
-I do not have the wonderful privelage to abuse a phone.

When you looked at yourself in the mirror today; What was the first thing you thought?
-Oh my.

Whats a word that you say alot?
-Tyler.. seriously hahaha..

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
-Yeahp...

Have you kissed anyone in the last week?
-Gross.. nah jk but no.

What are your plans for tomorrow?
-Church.

Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
-Sleep in like normal people!

-Untitled.

I have no title because I am not thinking anything today. I'm happy haha I just don't have anything on my mind. That's quiet peaceful actually.

Have you ever read the Twilight saga? It's amazing you should. You may say.. "I don't read". But neither does Trish (my brother's soontobewife). && She's halfway through book two. You also may say "It's about vampires, that's lame and I'm not interested". Let me tell you that's exactly what I said too. Truth of the matter is... it's not just about vampires like the bloodsucking killing people..... It's a love story. && the best one I have read at that. So check it out, for real.

Dakota left and Nikki is coming at 5. I love going places with her, it's always so much fun.
Gotta go take the scraps out for my dad's "cat".. Idk when he got one but all of a sudden he has been saying "my cat" hahaha....