I.Am.Alive.

For all what.. 3 that read this? Haha.. I'm alive.
I have just been hanging out.
Working.
Hanging out:)
Dating:)

Haha.. yes. dating. can you believe JamieLynn has a boyfriend? A beau.. a man. Hahahha! Ohkay. i really do though. i never thought i'd date or nothing. it's just something i didn't think would happen for me. but, yes. today after we had supper with the jaynes' gang (minus tyler:(.) he asked me to be his girlfriend. behind a mexican restraunt. the new PanchVilla here in good ol' mo'town. that don't happen to every girl haha..

i have a dip can as a reminder.
please.. don't ask.
sort of reminds me of my brother and his wife, she has a orange crush bottle.. it's just one of them memory things.

i am happy.
i hurt someone i care about very much to get here.
everything just wasn't as easy as i ever thought it would be.
and i'm still sorry...
oh well, can't change the past. i can only work on the future.

my future is looking happy.
if only my job would become something that made me happy.. since i have to spend everyday there.

well, i'm sleepy. i had a long day.
when I got off work, Kg came and picked me up and we headed to the Jaynes' house.. then we headed to PanchoVilla for supper and then we just went to his house and hung out for a while.
Then me, him, and his sister went to see my long lost bestfriend, Taylor, at her new apartment.

hmm.. then we went back to his house.
got his sister's keys..
took her home and then he took me home.
& walked me to the door.
I am the first girl he has ever walked to the door:)

Hmm.. goodday!

God's been good to me, He's my closest friend.

I don't have an update.

If I never see another dish in my life, I'll be just fine.
One hour, straight... 1:05-2:05.. no joke.
Still didn't get done:( sadface.

My bestsista Trisha (my SIL) got bucked off a horse Saturday.
I cried. Because.. I.couldn't.do.anything. to stop the pain.
I wasn't with her. Ol' James here don't ride horses. No way.
For that reason and that reason alone. You never know when they are going to start acting like that. The horse that hurt her has never hurt anyone, or bucked anyone. It was Trish's day, I reckon. It was part of God's plan for Trish's life right now, and you can always remember that... THINGS.COULD.HAVE.BEEN.WORSE. He could have stepped on her, she could have broke her neck, she coudl have hit her head and died. Bones.will.mend! Thank goodness.

We can't figure out how she broke her ankle. She doesn't know.
Anyways, she had to have surgery.
She has screws in her ankle and a metal plate in her wrist.

Three days later, she is doing a lot better. We just had supper with them. Momma's spaghetti! THE.BEST.SPAGHETTI.YOU.COULD.EVER.HAVE. Ask anyone, who has had it!!!

Work..
Momma taught me, if ya don't got nothin' nice to say, don't say nothin' at all.

Personal life?
I don't have one anymore.
There isn't four guys to choose from anymore.
There isn't a bunch of friends I hang out with every weekend anymore.
I don't like this adult thing.
I miss myf riends.
I miss those days.
I don't miss the dram or the choice of boys.
I miss hanging out with the greatest friends.. my little group.
Enjoying each other's company, riding down the road, deciding to take random trips...
AHH! :(.

Speak of guys. Well, sort of.
My Mom begged me to find a Godly guy today. She said "youa re doing so good with God right now, I beg you to stay away from those boys".. by those boys, sh means boys that are in the fire department, on the rescue squad, or want to be a policeman. For some reason, that's all I have went for in the past year. She told me to stick with guys like my friends Tyler & James. She said this because I have a friend that wants to set me up with his friend, who wants to be a policeman. The guy. Not my friend.. he is on the rescue squad.

I already tried dating him. hahaha.. but I ended up with his other friend. Who was a fireman. Oh & a bullrider.
Are you confused yet? Hahaha.. sorry.

She
wants
me
to
date
a
preacher.

Did you get that?

She
wants
me
to
get
me
a
preacherman.

Hmmm..

God and I talked about this. I'll take what He gives me. As long as he has blue eyes and is as in love with God, as me.. and hopefully more!

I need a shower.
Oh, and I have to finish laundry.
G'night.

Happy Birthday!

Ohkay, so my birthday was.... four days ago? Hahaha!

It was such a good birthday!

There was about 13 amazing ladies there!

-Both my SIL's.. (Nikki & Trish)
-My Momma:)
-My 2nd Momma & Callie, & Dona!!
-Aunt Angie!
-Mrs. Holden & Miss EmmaLou!
-Jewel & Abby.
-&& my best friend Taylor:)
-Oh AND thebestlittlesisterinthewholeworld Karlee!!

Oh & it wasn't ALL ladies. Clayton was there!:):)

So I am now nineteen. & it feels no different than eighteen. I don't guess the actual age hits you until you are older. Maybe when I'm 30 I will finally start feeling older.

We went to this nice little Mexico place called PanchoVilla in Lenoir, NC. Then we headed to Bo's in Lenoir, NC. For some VIP bowling ball and some arcade games. My Mom played AirHockey for the FIRST time!! I couldn't believe it aka that is my favorite game, who ain't played that?!

After the arcade we headed to Tonya's house and when I got there I didn't know but they had set me up a surprise party:) & then we had a sleepover. No matter how old I get, I will never be too old for a sleepover with my girls:)

My Mom and Dad even sent me flowers at work:) I loved it. I had never received flowers anywhere before!
Hmm.. reminds me. I have to get my card from Jackie out of the car.. that has twenty dollars in it! haha..

Speaking of money. I get paid tomorrow!!

Work was ohkay today. Everyday is like a rollercoaster. One minute it's really fun, the next.. horrible. It is just back and forth.
I'm still praying for everyone. I pray God blesses them and touches them and gives them good moods and smiles!

Hope everyone has had a wonderful weekend!:)
Tomorrow is Wednesday! My favorite day!!

Google, Dinner, Work...

I googled about the mines.. There ain't mines, just like I thought. However, they used to be gold mines here. (That's what I got from Mom) but that was a REALLY long time ago.

My birthday is this Friday. I'll be nineteen. More than likely it's just like being eighteen just a different number.

I wish I still had the plans I had to begin with.. however, a lot of things have changed in three months. It's ohkay though, I'll have fun Friday night at a nice little mexican restraunt in Lenoir, NC called Pancho Villa. Attending with me will be some of the greatest women I know:) let me rephrase.. I WILL be with the greatest women I know. My Mom, both my SILs (Nikki & Trisha), Nikki Deal, Tonya Jaynes, Angie Toney, hmm.. Clayton ain't a woman but he will be there:) he does pretty good hanging with the girlies..

"Any man of mine better say it fits just right when lasts years dress is just a little too tight.. anything I do or say better be okay when I have a bad hair day..."

You may be wondering why there are no guys (other than Clayton) well.. the men EVERY year (for the passed two years) they have planned the men's fishing trip on MY birthday. It's okay.. really.

"If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders, I know my brother, He will carry you.."

Work update? There ain't one really.. it's the same everyday. I just wish people were more happy? Carrying? Loving? Respectful? It will look up, I know. I've been praying for everybody in that place! :)

Back to the mines

Hi ho, hi ho.. it's off to work we go! OHKAY! Nobody went to the mines.. are there even mines in Morganton? I don't think so..... I'll Google it later (because I google everything)..

"Here am I so unworthy of the blood.. but yet it flowed for me"

Surprisingly enough, I had a wonderful day at work. Nobody yelled at me for wearing my pants the wrong way, nobody flipped out because ALL the dishes weren't done, and nobody fussed because I was being slow.. hmmm.. however my mother got threatened to be whooped because she taught me to "wash dishes in cold water" .. woman, I didn't turn the heat off on the sink.. Hmph. My Momma taught me to wash dishes just fine, thanks!

Have you ever met someone who couldn't smile? Or didn't now how to reply to niceness? I can't stand when I pass someone and smile and they don't smile back. Come on.. your day can't be THAT bad to disrespect your fellow smilee.. Gee!

I'm babbling about absolutely nothing.

"& our daddy's used to joke about the two of us growing up and falling in love.. "

I'm about to go do my nails.

I have a special person on my mind.

& I wish Clayton would wake up... so we can play some basketball!

Revival tonight?

Prepare my heart

I think God is preparing my heart for the rest of my life. So, I'm praying and meditating on some things.

"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me." --Psalm51:10

I want God to make my heart pure again. I know that I have done so very wrong. But, God forgives and forgets my sin. Not because He is a forgetful God but because he chooses to. I thank Him so very much for being the merciful God that He is. I know that I can't go back to the way I used to be, because things will never be the same. However, with God's help I'm going to rekindle that flame that I smothered out with my worldly actions. I'm going to live for MY GOD for the rest of my life.

I had my taste of the wild side, and thank God it didn't last very long. I didn't like it at all. None of it. It's not important what all I have done, but He let me know I was His child with His conviction and I'm so thankful for that.

I've been through a lot in the last three months and so many things have changed.

As I said, I can't go back to the way I was because you can never replay or relive the past, but I can change my future and get back on the right path for serving my Lord.

Now, I ask Him to prepare my heart for what He have me to do. I will NEVER fall astray again.

I have lost my testimony. It will not be built back over night but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Drexel Carnival:) and a bunch of other babble

I thought it was the fair until my Mom explained it to me. Hahaha.. It was just the fair but I had so much fun. I went with Tyler (you all know him or you should from earlier posts), Taylor (the best friend from earlier posts), Austin (picture from yesterday), & Bethany:) (you don't know Bethany.. she is Austin's girlfriend and the quietest person I have ever met in my life!)

Anyhoodle...

I had fun.

Got a text that made me smile when I got home:)

Hm.. to go down this road again or to not go down this road again, that is the question?

I'm officially broke. I spent 13 dollars on an unlimited riding bracelet and rode a whole of two rides. I should have listened to Tyler. Buy by tickets I would have saved like five dollars.

I rode the Farriswheel! (: My favorite ride!!!! I was so excited. All but I got scared when we stopped exactly on top and the riderunner guy said "don't lean forward or it will flip and you will fall out" and what does Tyler want to do at the top?! It really flipped me out. Haha.. he probably has my hand print permanently and forever on his legs. Ha, sorry for that Ty..

I was excited about the barn and stuff but that's because I thought it was the fair. It's wasn't the fair. But!! When the fair comes around then I'll be right there! Hahahahaha.. I'm such a kiddo. It's ohkay though:)

Oh, I took one step towards college the other day. I took a TABE test.. my basic education is good, I passed:). NOW I have to take CPR. Then, I can start my classes:).

But for right now I'm going to go to bed because I have to be at work @ 7 am. Oh by the way if you didn't know I now have a full time job!:).

I'm getting my relationship back with God too. FINALLY! Man.. I really messed up but no sin is bigger than grace.

G'night!

Wordless Wednesday

"FAMILY" :)

Came out of nowhere & stood on the edge of nothing because there was nothing to stand on...

I was watching YouTube last night and I came across this preacher man. His name is S.M. Lockridge (the late, he has now passed away). If y'all have heard of him I'm sure you have heard of his famous sermon "That's My King".. yes, that one is awesome. But, my favorite was this one.

(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CD0okdlmzvE&feature=related) it won't let me have a code. Anyways, look at it.

My favorite part is when God came out of nowhere, stood on nothing, put his hand out into nothing grabbed a hold of something when there was nothing to grab a hold of hung that something on nothing and told it to stay there. (you have to watch it.. if you skipped it.. go back! It's awesome!!)

My next favorite part is when he talks about how when Jesus was on the cross and the theif told him if he is the true God then to save himself. Jesus never replied to him but the silence said "you will see" because it is better to come up out of the grave than to come down from the cross.

How awesome?! Haha..

Have a nice day:).. (if you have still yet to watch it.. do it!!)