Prepare my heart

I think God is preparing my heart for the rest of my life. So, I'm praying and meditating on some things.

"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me." --Psalm51:10

I want God to make my heart pure again. I know that I have done so very wrong. But, God forgives and forgets my sin. Not because He is a forgetful God but because he chooses to. I thank Him so very much for being the merciful God that He is. I know that I can't go back to the way I used to be, because things will never be the same. However, with God's help I'm going to rekindle that flame that I smothered out with my worldly actions. I'm going to live for MY GOD for the rest of my life.

I had my taste of the wild side, and thank God it didn't last very long. I didn't like it at all. None of it. It's not important what all I have done, but He let me know I was His child with His conviction and I'm so thankful for that.

I've been through a lot in the last three months and so many things have changed.

As I said, I can't go back to the way I was because you can never replay or relive the past, but I can change my future and get back on the right path for serving my Lord.

Now, I ask Him to prepare my heart for what He have me to do. I will NEVER fall astray again.

I have lost my testimony. It will not be built back over night but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.