This is God...

I wish I could be in a service like this every Sunday & Wednesday.. Everytime I walked through the doors. I watched this video and felt the spirit. It made me yearn for it.. I'm pshyced!

Check it out. It's an old hymn called "Precious Jesus"..

Weekend..

I'm pretty excited about the weekend thus far. Today we are having the Wedding Rehearsal for Trish & Andrew @ 5 then afterwards we are going out to eat @ Prime Sirloin Steakhouse (aka AJ's Steakhouse because that's what it was first).. After all this I'm going back to Tonya's (T's mom) house to stay the night because all the guys are taking Andrew fishing (&& keeping him up all night *this is where my evil laugh comes in :)*) So I'm staying there because this will probably get to be the last time I am with Trish for the night that I'm going to have in a long time :(

You don't understand haha, I'm excited about the wedding and them being married don't get me wrong, but I spend literally every weekend with her && now I don't.. haha it's messed up! Okay that sounded like I'm mad but I'm not.

Tomorrow is the big day. We have to be @ the church @ 9:00 am (no sleeping in this weekend) then the wedding is @ one o'clock, after this clean up :/ lame..

Sunday it's the norm just minus Trish & Andrew because they are on the honeymoon.

I have a serious burden on my heart so please keep me in your prayers. It's getting to the point that it's slightly making me mad. & to be mad about that hurts me..

Welp, I'm off:) Have a WONDERFUL day!!

Looking back ...

"through the years, the heartaches & tears, the Lord has never once let me down. Though I don't understand still I'll trust in His plan...."

Okay that's not what this entry is about but that song popped in my head when I wrote the title. This entry is about a post I made back in January with a whole wish list of things that I wanted or prayed for God to do in my life. It's not yet 2010 but I was going through old blogs since I have nothing else to do right now and I came across it..

This is what has been answered so far:
_I could be as close to God as possible.
_I could take up piano again (even though it's slow right now I am teaching myself to play "Sweet By and By" :) that may or may not be someone special's favorite song)
_I stopped caring what others thought.
_I am more out going and confident in myself (on most days).
_I have spent as much time with my nephew as possible even though I'm busy all the time.
_I have stopped fighting with my mom so much :)
_I have become closer with my brothers. Mainly Andrew which is the main one I was shooting for because me and Chad are pretty close as it is.
_I'm not as shy anymore (still shy just not as much).
_I have made someone laugh everyday.
_Chad & Nikki are having another baby.
_My parents not longer treat me as a child.
_Trish & Andrew are getting married.
_I don't have the feeling to try as hard as I once did.
_My prayer life is better.
_I haven't gotten anymore tickets to cost my parents money:)
_I don't complain as much.
_I have made good grades.
_I have learned something new (almost) everyday.
_I have learned more.
_I no longer take life for granted or the things in it.
_I give big hugs everyday..

Not everything on my list has come true but I personally think it has come a long way.

This week until now..

I like making lists on here so here it goes...
My list is my likes & dislikes of This week until now:

LIKES:
-Clayton dancing (I wish y'all could see this, it's the cutest/funniest thing I have ever seen in my life)
-Getting closer to an old friend.
-Being out of school Monday.
-Trish's bachelorette party.
-Showing everyone my speech impediment when I say Marlboro & wheelbarrel, ahahaha
-Church
-Getting to level 20 on Snow Drift (www.shockwave.com type in Snow Drift in the search bar..it's like Mario with a mini abonimal snowman, so FUN!)
-Trish & Andrew's wedding got even closer.
-Seeing Johanna's ultra sounds.
-Knowing Jo-Raye's still alright.
-Being able to get up.
-Smiling.
-Finally figuring out what I think I'm going to do with my life!:)

DISLIKES:
-Getting sore throat two days shy of my final chorus concert.
-Popping my nail off on Trish's door handle (of all the things I done this week a door handle got me, lameo)
-My straightner doesn't get as hot anymore resulting in my hair isn't as straight.
-Getting butterflies when my exboyfriend walked by and waved (should not happen!)
-Being mad at T, because he didn't know that he done anything wrong. In fact he didn't do anything wrong.
-Having the feeling of hate, that's the worst feeling in the world towards someone I have ever experienced in my life.
-Having to dress up and do the Hula at the bacheloretter party (lame)
-Making a 65 on my practice speech because it was under time.
-Having to redo it today.

Okay.. I can't think of anything else. All in all this week has been good so far. I'm sure it can only get better.

Today:

LIKES:
-Working with dad again.
-Planting okra and beans with that cute little planter thing.
-Building a fire.
-Wearing Carhartts.
-Knowing Jo-Raye's still alright.
-The message Ashley Dombrowski wrote in my yearbook.
-Being able to wake up.
-Wasn't scared of the mules.
-Not getting a farmers tan (again).
-Driving posts in the ground (that is fun).
-Watching "Legends of the Falls" (Aidan Quinn is beautiful :)

DISLIKES:
-Not getting to wear boots. (Dad threatened me if I wore the blister boots again)..
-Being sore (no biggie).
-Finding out how T feels.
-Crying.
-Letting the dog out.
-Bout got hit with tin.
-Not seeing Clayton.
-Waiting one more day.

I guess the goods out weigh the bads. But the dislikes hurt worse than the goods made me happy (well some of them). Still yet God has blessed me today. && I have no right to complain. He has answered my prayers. && He will continue to do so. It's in "His time" anyways, right?

What I like about today__

As tired as I may or may not be.. here is a list of things that I loved about today.

-I got to spend time with my two older brothers.
-I got to drive Andrew's big red Dodge (note that this is a stickshift. Okay, okay I'll admit it was in low 4-wheel drive and I didn't go passed 1st gear. Not the point, I drove it without it dying is the point)
-Spending time with my dad.
-Throwing hay bails onto a real long trailer while it was moving.
-Jumping on the pile of hay bails on the trailer while it was moving (that was fun).
-Riding real high on the top of the hay bails on the trailer.
-Throwing a football around with my brothers.
-Laying in the grass looking at the sky.. I never noticed how beautiful the sky really was. I just never look up. I think I'ma start doing that.
-Gathering hay in the dark.
-Spinning a wheel in my dad's yellow Ford because I took off on a hill.
-Spending time with my Uncle Rick.
-Eating sunflower seeds with Andrew & Dad while we was waiting on Chad to finish bailing so we could pick up.
-Learning something new from my dad.
-Finally really appreciating my dad for what he is, has accomplished, I just love him.
-Not being mad at God anymore.
-Watching Chad sing to the top of his lungs on the tractor because nobody could hear him.
-The loft in Uncle Rick's barn and the motor hay bail thing that gets the bails to the loft without us carring them.
-Having the ability to work.
-The fact that I didn't get a farmer's tan since Andrew & Trish's wedding is a whole of 9 days away.
-Spending all day long outside.

Yeah today was pretty good. I loved it all. I love my life.
I hope y'all had a good day too! :)

You Belong With Me...

T don't have a girlfriend... But I'm sure you can get why I would "sing" this song to him. Hahaha... Watch till the end.. it's the sweetest thing!

Randommmm ba bandom..

So, I'm homeschooling whatever children I may or may not have. Because Senior Project is expensive, annoying, and the biggest hassle I have yet to deal with in my life. I will not make my children suffer this way..

I'm finally finished with that dang portfolio. It's missing the interview and the title page. Because I don't know what the title page looks like and the interview is at school. Yeah.. I thank God for the teacher I have!!

Hm, I have nothing to talk about.

OH! I lied.. My dear friend Wesley Dearman (get it? haha) seems to think T likes me. Just from his observations of us haha.. Wes is actually really good at reading people. It's sortah spooky because it's like he can tell you what your feeling or something.. Creepayy! ha, just kidding I personally think it's awesome. Anyways, it's too long to type on here. But the gist of what Wes said is.. it seems to him that we like each other but we are waiting for the other to say something. So someone needs to make a move... We are both scared of rejection. Because he said that I sortah push away from T to make it seem like I don't like him and we are just friends (so true)--- it's crazy and Wes explains it better.

Pray for David Vandyke and family (my cousins).. His son Matthew and his girlfriend, Brittnay, were walking to the rodeo last night and they got hit by a car & it killed Brittnay. She was 17 years old and her and Matthew have a baby. So keep them in your prayers. I don't think she was saved but I am nobody to judge. Pray God get the glory out of it. I know it may seem hard for their family to do that right now.. Pray lives are touched and God is used in this situation.

Speaking of the Rodeo.. I defiantely went there Saturday. You will never meet someone that is so scared of cows and horses/mules (whatever the beastlike four legged creature is) than I am. But, I LOVE rodeos.. Weird, huh? Growing up my brother's had a friend named Jeremey Reed (beautiful__haha) and his dad always ran a rodeo and Chad & Andrew used to participate in it. Well his father died a few years ago and Jeremy keeps the rodeo going. It's called Hillside Farms. It's neat to watch the bull riding and stuff. I actually have a friend that barrell races and a few friends that ride bulls. It's neato!!

T graduates Saturday btw.. and he presents his big SP speech Tuesday so please keep him in your prayers :)

Okay.. I have nothing more to say..
Good day.. I SAID GOOD DAY!

I'm Angry..

I'm just angry.

Welp, I'm going on a field trip to the BCPL && then to the lake :) fun!