I need to do this...

I need to vent. Severely right now. I don't care who reads this and if they like it. I'm going to say how I feel. Because I'm tired of being the girl who is so humble. I let people run over me because I rather see them happy even if it takes me down. I like being humble, yes, and I'm thankful for that trait. Because if I always said how I felt, I would have a lot of people not like me.

God forgive me, again, for being so bitter.

There are a select few at church that I don't know why they come. Really.. I cried tonight because they distract me so bad from God. I couldn't tell you what the general message Richie was preaching was about. I can tell you some of it and where he read from but that's all. They sit in front of me and text, pop bubbles, talk, giggle, pass notes. && no, my readers they are not children they are in highschool. Sometimes I feel like I'm just too mature for highschoolers... These are the times I wish I went to Burke Middle College. I should have. I really should have.

Then when I started crying...emotions started surfacing that I always push back. I keep hid away. I have like one of my best friends for 8 years (I know long time, it's one of those "since we were kids" stories)... && I have never told him or anything (if he don't know by now though he's a little slower, for lack of a better word...haha). We are getting so close our senior year in highschool but as I look forward as close as we are getting our lives are going in completely different directions. Not just that though, other things are bothering me to. Stuff I don't feel necessary to spill out on the World Wide Web.

Thank you for listening if you read it.
It means a lot. Well sortah. If you have anything to say just tell me.
Any solutions will be accepted at this time :]