Why can't I just live my life?

I don't like being 19.
I don't like drama.
Why can't be life be content and you can just date someone without it?
Without people's two cents.
I could care less what they have to say unless it is serious advice and wisdom coming from experience and not putting someone down..

I care about a lot of people and all these people don't necessarily like each other.
But, I won't let them talk bad about each other.
I will not pick sides.
I'm tired of bickering.

I have a very dear friend that thinks I'm making excuses for not hanging out.
That's not it.
I have a very busy life these days.
I'm always running and doing something.
Just let me know, and I'll make time.
I love you.

I miss the old days.
I miss December 2009.
I was happiest then.
The very happiest I have ever been in my life.

I'm happy now.
But, back then was good too.

I wish I could just be with the one I'm suppose to marry and be with them for the rest of my life.
Instead of having to date.
I wish I could see God's GPS for my life.
Because, I need some serious direction.