The Library..

I'm at school and it's 12:19 P.M. I'm sitting beside my best friend and she is doing some flash drive thing for when we start our senoir project papers. Whoo! (That's sarcasim completely)..

It's actually lunch time, but I don't eat lunch.. just because I don't need it. I'm trying to lose weight and yes I know (Nikki.. haha) that I should eat. Because not eating doesn't help but I just feel better when I don't eat. Does that make sense? Maybe it only does to me.

We are reading this book called Lord of the Flies, I think I talked about it before but I'm not sure.. Anyways I don't recommend it. Haha! That sounds awful. I mean the book has a good intention but the way it is presented to you is ..... boring! There is no better words to say. It's just plain boring. I do know that my mom loves it. However, my mom likes to read.. just about anything. Anything to learn. However, I am different. It has to catch my attention and keep it.

I'm doing hair for my senior project and one of my youth leaders at church (Tonya) is my mentor. I think it will be a lot of fun because Tonya is really smart and I know she can help me do a really good job on my paper. Note to self: buy ink for printer.

My paper is due March 5th (for extra credit). You are probably wondering why I am worried about getting started now. The fact is it is a TEN page research paper :(. I'm horrible at those and all their citing and citation pages and whatnot. I can write my way out of ANYTHING but a research paper. I wish we could just write a story ahaha.. I would make a 100 I do believe.

Lunch is over in 5 minutes so I shall leave on this note.
Have a blessed day. Also what I learned in english today if you don't understand something or don't like something the best thing to do is "smile and wave". Strictly of Madagascar 1 & 2.

Good day;

I'm So Full!

My mom makes the all time best speghetti in the world. Hands down. She cans her own sauce and whatnot and it's just so good. I prefer my speghetti a certain way.. & there is only one other person who has came primarily close to fixing it the way my mom does. However, she was still not as grand as my mom. If you have never ate my mom's speghetti I now invite you to my house to eat it.. You have to try it. It's a goal you should have before you die. Well, maybe not that.. but it's really good! Can I get a witness?

We have to be back at church today at 3 to pray over camp. Will you all pray for our camp that God will be in the center of everything and have His will and way in everyone's hearts. Camp is the best time of the year for me.. Even though this year I will be working, I hope that I will be able to get off. However, help us pray please! There is so much work that goes into making this camp...

Well I'm off to have the prayer meeting for camp. I'll return later and tell you how church went tonight..

If it was anything like this morning, it will be good!

I'm the Wonner!

"Of a brand new car!" (imagine that in a Bob Barker voice) ahahah! I wished.. A new car would be the best thing in the world. Well almost. No I have been "tagged" by Nikki & Amy.



The rules of the award:
1) Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design.
2) Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with "Honest Scrap." Well, there's no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon.3)

List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

My Winners:
1. Nikki- http://chadandnikki.blogspot.com/
2. Joan- http://cablecarr.blogspot.com/
3. Amy- http://jandacarr.blogspot.com/
4. Amber- http://proudtobehiswife.blogspot.com/

Okay, so it's not 7.. but I don't know that many people on here! ahaha..

Ten Things you may or may not know about me:
1. My favorite thing to do is spend time with the youth at my church (I know I'm not like most kids my age).
2. I live and breath for Clayton Avery Carswell's smiles, giggles, and loving.
3. My everyday goal is to make someone random smile or even laugh.
4. I pay attention to the minor details in things that no one else does.
5. I have been actively praying and reading my Bible for going on a month (Yeah Nikki.. you shouldn't feel bad anymore). Pray that I keep it up.
6. I a lot different than my family. More open minded I suppose.
7. I love to write.
8. I'm addicted to the internet.
9. I love to sing and I'm trying to get better so I can sing for the Lord.
10. I hate talking on the phone.

Okay, so that stuff isn't really interesting .. but hey.. who cares? I wrote this thing not you.

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

The title explains my day..

Hm, my first period is quite hard and it makes it even harder because I'm not even interested in the subject. However, God will take care of it.
In my senior english class we are reading Lord of the Flies.. It's boring and I'm only ten pages in! Maybe it will get better.

I'm down today..but there is no sense in posting it on here, it's the normal stuff that goes on in my life. Mostly the parents. However, I have been praying that The Lord will give me patience with them. No need to complain though, I'm sure you guys are tired of hearing it.

I graduate June 12th at the lastest..
I'm trying to scan for jobs here and there. It's a possibility I could work at WCC. That would be amazing because as you know in my blogs from before I LOVE special needs people..

Well, this was a waste of blogggg ahaahaa..
My eyes are blurry & my head hurts.

Pray for me please.

I'm all about Weddings Lately:

So here is how I want my wedding to be :)
If the Gracious Lord every allows me to have one..

My dress: This is a rough cartoon version ..

this is the url to see a picture of the real one: http://www.davidsbridal.com/bridal_gowns_detail.jsp?stid=2792&prodgroup=159

My shoes:


Bridesmaids: (Trish, Gillian, Nikki, & Taylor)

They can wear whatever shoe they want..as long as it's purple like the dress. :)

Flower Girl: (another virtual)

The Real One:http://www.davidsbridal.com/flowergirl_detail.jsp?stid=2315&prodgroup=11

Groom: (a vest the color of the bridesmaids dresses)
Groomsmen: (same thing)
Men's Flower: orchid.

Clayton: (like all the other guys but he gets a bow tie instead :))


Oh and my wedding will be outside at my church.. so the mountains can be in the background <3

what do you think?

My First Day...

Today felt like my first day of school. When I saw all of my friends I missed them so bad! AH!!! I didn't realize how much. I don't have classes with all of them though. :( However, it's okay.

My Schedule Consists Of:
1st-Business Law(I don't know why I'm in there..I don't care about Law)
2nd-Chamber Singers(BEST class of the day. I get to sing..&& my best friend Ashley is in there)
3rd-English 12(Ewh, senior project!)
4th-Media Center Assistant(It's awesome, I'm like a Librarian..well sortah ahahaha)

I have two friends in my first period. Well now three..because one of my friends got added. I have a whole alto section of friends (but Ashley's my best). In third..I know people but I don't know. We are just aqcauntinces (sp) However, Gillian (my best friend) is in there :)!! Then in fourth I'm with Gillian (<3) & Ashley (<3).. So it's great.

My laptop overheats alot.. I need one of those things you sit it on and it has vents.. But they are way expensive (well to me anyways)..I saw them at Staples today. I never thought I could have fun in Staples. I went with my friend Ashley and her brother Chris. Because Chris needed a new binder and it was so fun. We went around and played with all the laptops and whatnot. It was just fun :)

Goodness! I'm so happy right now..
My prayer life is open and I have a desire to be in God's word. It's just wonderful..

How are you guys' days going? I hope wonderful! Tell me about it. I care to listen.

Today is Better!

Thank you God! He has made today really great. Hm, I don't really have much to say today. I had a good day today.. me and my mom didn't fuss at all except she keeps cracking like fat jokes on me. I mean, I know I'm big.. hello, who doesn't realize this? However, just because I realize it doesn't mean that I'm not insecure about it. But it's whatever. God made me the way I am for a reason unknown to me. I'm going to embrace it to the best of my ability.

I can't find my itouch right now. I'm about to freak out! Ahhhhhh! ahahahahaha. It was in my Carhartt coat pocket but now it is gone and I don't know where it is. My brother, Andrew, was throwing my coat around earlier.. it probably fell out. He's so lame sometimes.

I'm also still trying to figure out whether or not my hair looks good natural. I posted a picture earlier but no one said anything. Well I think it looks alright and it's easy to do when I don't feel like straightening it.

Also.. thank you Joan for praying for me today :) that meant a lot.

I think I'm going to go cruise the net for a while, take a shower, and go to bed. I might go do community service tomorrow so I can earn back my prom privaleges.. I don't know if I lost them or not. However, Taylor don't want to do it by herself so I might go tomorrow. This is the prom policy at our school: If you have four tardies to school you have to do ten hours of community service to gain your privaleges back, otherwise you can't go to prom. Does anyone think that's as stupid as I do? I don't get my report card until Thursday so I don't find out how many tardies I have. I know I have three. I probably have four.. tis my luck.

Goodnight World. Sweetdreams.

I'm Going To Be Blunt...

I'm just in this mood where I'm being blunt. Getting out in the open on what gets on my nerves most.. So here you go:


-People who cuss.
-People who think getting high is cool. FYI: it makes you look like a straight up freaking idiot.
-At this moment, my parents.
-When people chew with their mouth open.
-My OCD.
-When I have to go to bed when my parents do. That's so ridiculous.
-People. Period.
-Hubristic people. I could punch them in the face.
-When people type stupid.
-When I walk in my kitchen and the soap lid is open, the cabinet is cracked, and the flyswat is hanging at the end of the nail (please, don't ask).
-How sometimes my OCD makes me go back to things multiple times.
-Not understanding stuff.
-Huge handwriting.
-Fake Christians.
-How scared I am of the dark.
-How I have to scratch the top of the toothpaste lid when I close it.
-How I write, erase, write, erase...till I get it right.
-Rhythmic noises, like pencil tapping.
-People who talk bad about people they are suppose to love.
-Andrew's messy room, because I spent an hour and a half cleaning it.
-Liars.
-That I have one plug in my room, and I have so much electronic stuff.
-How that plug in barely keeps everything plugged up.
-If something touches it, it unplugs.
-My laptop gets overheated so fast and cuts off.
-I wear the same shoes all the time because we don't have much money and I can't buy new ones.
-How our family isn't doing the best financially and it's sortah my fault because I got tickets.
-How I wish I could save the world.
-The fact that I can't.
-I wish I could protect everyone and I can't.


I'm sorry ya'll have to live with me. I'm just being so askldjfaskldfj right now. I don't know why.

However, you know what I love? God.. He is so wonderful and even though I'm complaining He still loves me.

He is painting a beautiful white scenery outside my bedroom window. The trees are so beautiful.

Please pray for me. I can't stand it in this house much longer. It's really driving me insane. I wish I had more patience with my parents. I just don't. I just want them to let me go. Please.

Just pray for me :)
Thanks to those of you that do.

I Wish I Could Sing;

I wish I could sing country. Not country music..just with a country style. I have been in chorus so long my voice is nothing but rounded vowels and right cosanants (sp). Sortah bothers me. I have been practicing though, to get my accent back into my singing. I just have to be sure and not do this at school or Mrs. Sawyer will fuss at the alto section, and it would be my fault. I just want to sing like this so I can sing southern gospel at church. I mean I like contemparary, and that's what I listen to. However, I love singing southern gospel...and the only person in southern gospel I can sing real well is Allsion Krauss. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love her music.. (you should check out her song A Living Prayer, it's awesome!)

Okay, enough about that. I was just saying. Anyways..a reply to Joan (CableCarr)'s comment on my last blog.. yes I'm doing wonderful today! Hope you are too (along with the rest of my readers)..

I learned something amazing at Bible Study tonight.. Have you ever noticed the Wise Men went a different way than how they came when they found Jesus? Doesn't that sound like salvation? We travel a different way when we find him, we don't go back the way we came. That's amazing.

My beautiful redheaded nephew was here today! I love him. We layed up on the recliner and slept for like an hour and a half. He snores. Pahahaha, well just a little. I love taking naps with him, because I get to wake up to his gorgeous face!

Well.. I'ma go find something to do.

Does my hair look good like this? I have been wearing it natural for a while..because I wear it straight ALL THE TIME!