Clayton said my Name : )

Okay.. so he didn't totally come out and say "Jamie" or anything.. But to get my attention he goes "ahhhhmmmiaaa" pahahaha.. okay it sounds like Jamie.. in my head. :) Well he's beautiful and you can't read what he sounds like.. But I was excited when he said it.

Hm, today has been slow. I got home from Chad & Nikki's at.. I don't know what time we got here. But me & Claybob layed up in the recliner and went to sleep. Needless to say I slept WAY longer than he did. For real, then I had to go to my bed becaue his laughing was keeping me from sleeping.. I love his laughter.. but I really wanted to sleep. So I did, till 3:30.

Then I heard Clayton babeling (I learnt today that, that Babel means confusion.. like the tower of Babel..:))

I read ten chapters in the Bible today :)
I'm so vurrrrry proud !!

Hm, I must close my eyes for I will go to church tomorrow & learn about Jesus :)
Goonight Blogosphere;

Here's some pictures of my life :)

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(shout out to Nikki.. will you send me that picture of me and you at the woodshed, please :))

Random Stuff About me:

Who Are You?
Name:	Jamie Lynn Carswell
Zodiac Sign:	Taurus (i spelled that so wrong)
Rising Sign:	What?!?
Birth Year:	1991
Birthplace:	Morganton, NC
Hometown:	Morganton, NC
Is your Hometown a small town, rural town, suburb, city, or inner-city:	Uh, small townish.....
Highschool(s):	Freedom (9-10), Patton (11-12)
Are you the eldest, middle, youngest or only child?:	Youngest "/
Heritage:	Uh, am I suppose to know this?!?!
What Do You Look Like?
Hair Color:	RedBlondeBrownishhh.
Eye Color:	Hazel, but more on the Green side.
Skin tone:	Pale. Pahahaha,
Face Shape:	?!?! Sharp...Sortah.
Height:	five nine.
Weight:	Blaahhh.. Like you should know?!?!
Shoe size:	9-10
What Makes You Tick
What aspect of your personality do you like best?	My Sense Of Humor.
Which aspect of your personality do you like the least?	My Shyness.
What are some things about other people that annoy you?	Arogancy (is that a word?), Jerkiness, & when they chew with their mouth open. pahaha.
What are some things about you that might annoy people?	I'm way too nice, even when someone hates me.
When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?	A Teacher.
What is your favorite time of day?	When it's the hottest.
Are your parents still together, never were together or divorced:	Still Together, since 1976.
How do you handle arguments/disagreements with other people?	I ignore their ignorance.. & laugh it off : )
Would say you are more extroverted or introverted?	A little of both.
Are you spiritual? If yes, is your spirituality influenced by organized religion?	I don't have a religion. I have a relationship with Jesus Christ.
Name one of your physical traits that you would change if you could:	My Size.
Name one of your physical traits that you really like:	My Eyes & Hair.
Name something you�d like to do before you die:	Go to England.. & take Nikki w/ me.
If you could back in time to any point of history, where would you go and why?	The 40's & 50's.. because I would love to be a teenager then.
Have you ever experienced anything supernatural?	Not supernatural. Just Divine Intervention.
Are you close to your family members?	Hm, I would like to be closer, but we are all pretty close, I suppose.
Name some things in life that you are afraid of?	Darkness, Being Alone, Silence just freaks me out.
What is your biggest life issue right now?	Hm, Getting along with my mom, I suppose.
What Do You Like?
Colors:	Purple & Yellow (The Rainbow)
Scents:	Men's Cologne. & Nolie Live.
TV Channels:	Disney, pahahaa.. CMT.
Cars:	Cadillac Escalade.
PC Games:	I don't have any.
Snack Foods:	I don't think I have a favorite.
Beverages:	Sweet Tea.
Game Consoles:	Anything that Guitar Hero will hook up to.
Concerts:	I have only been to two...
Conversation Topics:	Whatever comes up. I'll talk about anything.
Newspapers:	The only thing I read in the Newspaper is the question of the day.
Magazines:	I like Seventeen.
Flowers:	Daisies.
Radio Stations:	Rap, Country, 106.9
Jewelry:	I like all jewelry.
Restaurants:	Mexican.
Clubs:	I'm probably never going to clubbing, honestly.
Websites:	Myspace, Blogspot, Myyearbook.
CDs:	Just about anything.
Vacation spots:	The Beach.
TV commercials:	FreeCreditReport.com.
Radio Commercials:	I don't have one.
Museums:	I want to visit that wax place Chad & Nikki went to in Las Vegas.
Stores:	Anywhere with cute clothes.
Outdoor Activities:	Swimming, Throwing around a ball, Shooting Hoops, Shooting Guns : )..etc.
Do You Like...
Seafood?	Mhmm.
Sushi?	Ewh, no.
Mexican Food?	Favorite : )
Italian Food?	Mhmm.
Chinese Food?	Mhmm.
Japanese Food?	The Shrimp stuff from Tokyo.
German Food?	Idk
Greek Food?	Idk?!!?!
Polish Food?	Never had any.
Mongolian Food?	Never had any.
Barbecue?	I have to be in the mood.
Cajun Food ?	It's alright.
Soul Food?	Mhmm.
Vegan Food?	Ewh.
Cake?	Ewh. No. Texture thing.
Cheese?	I love Cheese.
Jalapenos?	No.
Artichokes?	Gross.
Caesar Salad?	Sounds good.
Anchovies?	Yuck.
Rabbit?	It's alright.
Deer?	Good.
Bison?	I doubt.
Lamb?	Never.
Duck?	No Thanks.
Do You Play...
Baseball?	Pahahahhaa.
Softball?	Pahahaha.. you would laugh too.
Basketball?	I shoot hoops, but that's it.
Football?	I throw the ball around.
Hockey?	Not hardly.
Soccer?	I hate that sport.
Monopoly?	I can handle it.
Checkers?	Yeah, it's alright.
Chess?	I forgot how to play.
Scrabble?	I love that game.
Trivial Pursuit?	Never played.
Poker?	I don't know how.
Guitar?	Tyler tried.. I gave up before he did.
Flute?	No.
Clarinet?	That's Taylor's thing.
Piano?	I wished I could play.
Violin?	Nope.
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Fun with the Carrs & Carswells : )

Tonight was way fun.. I must admit. It was great getting out of the house & away from the "rents" (Nikki's new found word) for a while. :) We went to this really great place in Stanley, North Carolina called.. Oh goodness, I don't remember. Either way.. Pahahaa, it was good !!

I have never heard of Stanley, North Carolina in all my life.. But it's the cutest little town. & honestly, my favorite part was the police department. They have like one sherriff's car..(like the small towns on movies) and inside it looks like it too. With the one little bench. It's cuteeee :) Pahaha. I know I'm lame.. but I find enjoyment in the small things.

The food was great & I must again thank Alan & Joan for inviting us..
I love going places with Nikki & Chad. It's always so fun.

Hm, other than that.. my day was rather enjoyable. I don't have to take any exams still :) all but first period I'm not quite sure about that one yet.

I got to see my favorite boy in the world today :) Clayton Avery Carswell. He is beautiful as always. Hm, I just love that kidddddddddddddd !! He is the one that completes my life (other than God of course). && I get to be with him all day tomorrow too.

I miss my I-Pod. At the moment it's residing on Chad & Nikki's couch. I'm about to go get it.. I'm having seperation anxiety. Pahaha, just kidding. I just can't stand the silenceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! It drives me nutss!!!!

I'm sitting in the dark. Cold & Lonely. With nowhere to turn but to Pepper, the dog on my left...snoring. Okay, so that was a bit dramatic.. But it's all true but the lonely part. I'm not lonely.. I'm very, very, very happy.

Goodnight everyone. I'ma go cruise the net..

Response to Photo Tag;

:) Fourth Folder, Fourth Picture.. there is no telling what we will get:
Let's see::


Is this really what I end up with? Pahahaha,
Well these are my two oldest brothers..Andrew on the left Chad on the right.
I believe this is Andrew's first deer and apparentally Chad thinks it stinks ?!?!
pahaha.. I love them, I hope to one day call them my very best friends :)

I tag: Amber, Nikki, & Joan.. Hm, these are the only people I know on here. I can't really tag anyone.

Clayton Avery Carswell;

I miss him and his beautiful self.. on the real "/. I want to see him so bad. I miss that little redhead all the time. Everyone says you fall in love with a redhead at least once in your life (I already did) :) I could use that smile today........ I have had a really bad day. Well it started out really good, but ended ridiculously. Trish, Mom, & I all sat down to read the bible because I have 20 chapters to read in the Bible this week so I was doing my thing and me and mom ended in a fight. WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!! Nikki's right, you get along with your mom when you don't see her all the time. Mom said hurtful things that, if I had a car & a job, I think I might just leave. Where would I go??!?! Well I don't know. Trish's I guess.. But she seemed to be on Mom's side more than mine.

It's all good. I cried and broke down.. and whatever, ya know?!? I'm not talking about this it's making me mad again. All I know is I'm not telling my mom anything else at all.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. school was great :) I marbled paper it crafts & it was so cool!

I'm hoping I get to go to Amber's bachorlelaskdfjalsdjf party (idk how to spell it), this weekend....I don't know. But..I might go. I hope !! I'm the maid of honor or something like that. I'm the most important! Pahaha, jkjkjk!

I'm going to go get squeaky clean. goodnight;

Today is the BEST day of the year; (so far)..

Well by far today is the best day of the year?!? (We are only 5 days into it so I'm sure new days will come). Why you might ask is this the best day? Well I must say (don't want to give away too many clues).. Okay?!? Who cares about clues. I like the most amazing, sweetest, blue eyed boy in the world. (If Nikki is reading this, surprisingly enough.. it's not Tyler.. ahahahaha) !

I went to Bible Study tonight aimed to learn (after I played a little Guitar Hero). Anyways, and in the middle of Bible Study I was learning about Adam & Eve & all that.. (I read Genisis(sp) 1-6, it's very interesting.. alot more than I thought it would be). Well he takes my paper away and then hands it back to me and I read it and it says "Jamielynn, you look beautiful tonight, as always". All I could do was smile. It's so sweet. I always pick the jerks so I don't know how to react to sweetness like that. Then before I left he gave me his jacket to wear :) Ahhhh ! Okay, I'm excited beyond belief.. well other stuff happened but, pahahaha.. Who cares?!? That's the sweetest part. Okay I'm done..

Today was my first day back to school from a long, great, relaxing week long break from school. "/ Nah, it was alright. I'm pretty sure I'm exempt from all my exams (I'm passing math Nikki.. I have an A.) I only have an A in math because I'm in there with....... some of the dumbest people God put on earth. I know He loves them (that's why I'm not God).. I wish you could spend one day in that classroom. Actually no I don't. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.

Hm, well I must go freshen up for school tomorrow, pahahaha.. GOT TO WORK HARD> Well not really. All I do at school this semester is.. Talk in 1st, Sing in 2nd, Write in 3rd, Talk & make things in 4th.. It's pretty great.

Goodnight everyone.

Venting About Marriage. : ( / : )

So, how is everyone in the blogosphere?!? (got that word from the amazing nikki)! I'm great, I suppose. I have just been thinking a lot lately. Mom seems to have a feeling that Trish and Andrew are getting married. Which would be great! That's one of my 2009 prayers (if you have seen my afore mentioned prayer list)> and of course I know it's Trish's dream.

However, I have been thinking how much it would change my life. I know I'm sounding selfish, but can I please? I live most of my life making others happy, or at least trying. I go out of my way to make people laugh and I try to please everyone that crosses my path. So can I have the first amendment and vent ???!?! Okay: sorry.

Well, I think they are getting married too, which is great as I said. I mean come on I would have the man killed. Date me for 4 years and not marry me.. Psht, ain't happenin'. I just don't want things to change, but yet I do. Here's what bothers me.. Andrew will never be home again once the "I do's" are said. It will be me and my parents till I leave (which is no time soon). I know me and Andrew fight and we don't get along that great all the time.. But, I like when he comes home. Also, I'm afraid me and Trish's relationship will change. I know we will always be best friends and she's always here for me and whatnot. However, there will be no more Saturday nights at her house because Andrew will be there and that just won't happen. Plus, even if it still did... it wouldn't be as fun anymore, just because.. well Andrew is there and that's me and Trish's thing. There will be no more Friday night runs to Los Arcois.. because Andrew would have to come.

Wow, I sound like a selfish little brat and oh my gracious I'm sitting here and my eyes are starting to leak.. with happiness and sadness all at once. It's like my best friend is marrying my brother. Which is exactly what is happening.

Is it just a little sister thing? Because I totally cried when Chad got married too.. because well.. He was My Chad. However, I didn't live with Chad for 17 years. Only 10. Plus, I love Nikki with all my heart.. It was just little sister stuff.

I'm awful and selfish. I'm sorry to all of you that have to live with me.. am I really that awful? I want them to get married, I do. I just don't want things to change. He's my brother, ya know?!? Jealous, you may ask.. Why yes I am. Not of just Andrew but Trish too.. I don't want Andrew to leave and I want me and Trish to stay the same. Wow, I'm going to shut up now, I'm rediculous.

Chad and Andrew and them came home today : )
I saw Chad for a little while then he left to great Nikki & Claybob.
I saw Andrew for two whole seconds but that's because I was going to get food and he was going to Trish's.
I saw Dusty.. But I don't care. Pahahaha.

Goodnight everyone.

New Years;

New Years was wonderful, just like I knew it would be. Alan & Jesse done wonderful, just like I knew they would!

Let's see: I have New Years resolutions, but they are lame. I have a wishlist for this year. More of a Prayer List.
But Here:

I WISH:
-I could be as close to God as possible.
-To practice my singing, and get better so I can sing for the Lord.
-I could maybe take up piano again, if Nikki would teach me.
-To lose weight with God's help, so I can feel better about myself.
-To stop caring what other's think of me. God made me, & I shouldn't care.
-To be more confident in myself. No used hiding who I really am from strangers.
-I could get braces, but I doubt.
-To spend as much time with my nephew that is absolutely possible!
-To stop fighting with my mom so much, she's not always going to be here.
-To become closer to my brothers, I want them to be my best friends.
-That they will accept me wanting to be their best friend and offer to do things with me.
-To possibly meet a good Godly guy, and maybe have a relationship (in God's hands all the way).
-To not be so dang shy.
-That my face didn't turn red when I get nervous or embarrassed.
-To make someone laugh everyday. Some random person.
-To read my Bible everyday.
-To not be scared of the future.
-Nikki and Wayne could have a baby.
-If God's will Nikki and Chad could have another one.
-My parents wouldn't treat me like I'm a child anymore. I'm almost 18.
-To start over with God, and forget about my past, because He did.
-Trish would get her wish and prayer to marry my brother, Andrew.
-To not feel as if I have to try so hard.
-To make my prayer life better: "you are as close to God as you want to be" -Jesse Carr
-To not cost my parents anymore ticket money and whatnot.
-To get a job that I enjoy.
-To not complain so much, it gets me nowhere and I have it alot better than most.
-To make good grades.
-Get my degree in special needs assisting. (maybe start working on my associates).
-Not to hang on to the word someday.
-To love and be loved.
-Learn something new everday.
-To learn more.
-To not take life for granted.
-Be a better witness, and lead someone to the Lord, again.
-Embrace everything God has ever given me and never take it for granted again.
-To please my dad better.
-To just be happy and give as big hugs as possible.

So...do you think that my list is long enough? I think so.. and you know what else? I think that God will answer them all & I'm sure that He will. "All things work for the good of those that love the Lord" & "With God all things are possible" & "I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me"....

AND!!! MY FAVORITE: -Philippians 4:11 "Not that I speak in respect of want but I have learned that whatsoever state I am; therewith to be content"

HAPPY NEW YEAR!